trying for the first time
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|Mon, 04-07-2003 - 4:47pm|
We had a surprise pregnancy when I was 19, and 4 months later I miscarried. I was devastated, and went through some major problems because of it. I consider that to be another reason why we waited so long. But all of a sudden, it seems right. My husband is really wanting this too, so I am certainly not going to say "no", but at the same time, now that we are really trying, I am scared to death! Is this unnatural? I guess I just feel that if I wait too much longer, I won't be able to-or that it will be even more difficult. I am freaking out because everything is NOT PERFECT! I mean, I just can't imagine everything falling into place like it should. In my mind, this is not the way things would have played out. But at the same time, I really want this for us as a family. I just feel like I have no control over it.
Anyway, sorry this is so lengthy, but I was just wondering if anyone out there has felt this way,has lived through it, and is able to reassure me that I am not crazy!