TTC-Just needing to vent

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Registered: 06-11-2014
TTC-Just needing to vent
Wed, 06-11-2014 - 10:09pm

Hello,

My husband and I have been ttc for over 13 years now to no avail. I have had so many test ran  been poked and prodded so many times it's heartbreaking. I am 33 years old and I feel it in my soul that I am getting bitter and bitter by the year. We are firm believers and I find mysen our church begging God to grant me children or give me answers or some kind of ray of hope.  Year after year unwed ladies in my church just pop up pregnant without even trying and I find myself becoming hateful and judgemental(secretly wishing it was me.I have no family or friends to talk to about this issue because they all have children they dont have time for or dont even want. My heart cries, and I inwarldlyCry want to lose hope but I cant. My husband is so supportive but the thought of being barren overshadows his love for me. Lord help me! Answer me! Heal me ! Hear my hearts cry!!!!!!!