What the H%!! is wrong with me????

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What the H%!! is wrong with me????
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Mon, 10-13-2003 - 11:21am
I have been feeling so moody this weekend. One minute I am happy, the next I am either depressed, sad, or angry. I have been having nightmares everytime I close my eyes and they seem SSSSOOOOOO real that when I wake up, I am in a panic because I think it is real. I don't think I am pg either so it must be PMS even though I have never experienced this before. I also want DH and then I turn around and feel like I need to be alone or something. It's weird. I love DH so much so it's not like I am angry at him for something. I just keep having weird moods. I certainly hope they go away. Then this morning when I took DD to school, it was almost like the first day all over again. I just wanted to stay with her or bring her back with me. On the way to work I felt like crying. I don't know why I was emotional about it. I hope they are pg symptoms but like I said, I doubt it. My chart was looking so good and now it seems like the end is near. AFNW 10/18. I have so many things in my life to be so happy for so why am I having mood swings? I have never had these before. HELP! IDEAS! SOMETHING?! TIA!


Sheree-TTC#2

CD 25/28 11 dpo

DD: Kaylyn 4/16/98

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Mon, 10-13-2003 - 11:58am
Hey there. Sorry to hear you're in a slump. I don't know what day that was, but I hope you're feeling better. I used to have what I called "night terrors." I would be "dreaming" that I was exactly where I actually was, napping and all (for some reason, this only happened when I napped), and someone was trying to take me. It was as though someone was trying to take my spirit. It was VERY scarey. I would be trying to scream in my sleep, but it was as though my vocal chords were paralyzed. I think I probably had 4 or 5 of those dreams in a year. Then, nothing. I don't know if my diet was way off or something, but I have no idea why that happened. Do you cry in your dreams? I know that when I cry in my dream, it seems to carry over to my waking world. Yuck. Not fair. :(

As for the mood swings, I try to do something calming. I use my animals. I have 3, so usually one of them is in a calm mood. Or I'll put the dog out and sit out there with her as she runs around full of life. One thing I don't like is to watch her with all that energy and wish I could be out there with her. (I'm relatively new to my job, and it drains me some days) I have no children, so I can't imagine giving up your baby to school.

As for DH, there are times when you do need time alone. I know that one wrong phrase can send me over the edge. And NO ONE but me could have possibly taken the phrase wrongly!! Sometimes it's as though you just go crazy. I think it's great that you have been able to identify all of your emotions, and that you are able to realize that this may not be normal for you. When you identify the emotions, you can rationalize a bit better...maybe something pissed you off, but you remember that you're not really yourself lately, and you may be able to stop yourself from overreacting. Does any of that make sense?

I just hope you feel better soon.

Take care.

Kel
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Mon, 10-13-2003 - 12:19pm
OMG KEL! When you described your "naptime" dreams my jaw hit the floor. That is EXACTLY what happened Saturday. DH and DD went down to my in-laws ranch down the road and I went home to get some things done. Well, I folded some laundry and felt so exhausted that I decided to lay down and take a nap. This was right about lunchtime. It was exactly as you described. It was like it was so real and someone was trying to get me and I was trying to scream and couldn't. At one point I woke myself up and was so sure that someone was in the house that I got up and walked around the house. I realized that nobody was there and it was just a dream so I went back to sleep. The same thing happened again but this time in my dream I could see DH standing on the deck outside and I was trying to scream his name and I couldn't. It was so scary and seemed so real. It hasn't happened at night so far. Then this morning I remember hearing the alarm go off and I guess I dozed back off. Well, I dreamed that I had gotten up and was doing my usual routine (getting DD up for bkfst etc) but when I walked past the dining room window I saw 3 men in red shirts getting into my Jeep! I ran out there before the driver could shut his door and I was screaming at them to get out of my Jeep and I was also screaming at DH to wake up and come outside! Finally I woke up and it seemed so real I actually had to go look outside and make sure my Jeep was still there! There is one thing that has been bothering me and it is somewhat work-related but I will post this problem later. Be looking for it. It has to do with my boss and his wife and her "illness". Thanks for being there though!

Sheree

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Mon, 10-13-2003 - 12:37pm
Ok, that is just too weird!! Those terror things I had were so awful, and I don't know how I ended up getting rid of them!! They usually have no point except to "get" you. When I realized that these dreams were scaring the crap out of me and were repetitive, (not necessarily in content, just in intent), I began to fear what would happen if "it" got me. I was scared that something was going to be taken from me and I might not be able to get it back. Because nothing real took it. Weird, but I hope you know what I'm talking about. (this was in 1995 or 96...but I remember it crystal clear!!)

***ANYHOW...WHAT I TRIED...I tried to convince myself that when I fell asleep, if I began to dream, a big purple banana would show up. This is how I was to know I was draming. I would think of that big purple banana as I fell asleep. I never actually dreamed about the banana, but I never had the terrors again. (I have no clue why I decided on a big purple banana...I think it's probably because I knew I'd NEVER actually dream of a big purple banana) It's worth a shot. But now I've got butterflies in my stomach thinking that this is actually happening to someone else.

Kel