Anyone else undermine their losses?
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|Fri, 11-05-2010 - 1:22pm|
I am not sure why I do this. But for a long time i didn't really acknowlege my ectopic pg as a *loss*... maybe I simply really didn't want to joing the *club* none of us ever wanted to be members of. I never knew I was pg until I had unbearable pain... went to my doctor, who dismissed it as gastric and sent me on my way for a few more days. That is when my tube burst and I had internal bleeding. For me, it was easier to look at it as a medical issue and not really a loss.
I also have a hard time acknowledging my later chemical pg as a loss. I kind of beat myself up a bit for testing so early. If I had waited until i was late I am not sure a line would have even shown up. So, with that I really don't say that I had four losses, which I really did. I also don't want people to feel TOO sorry for me IRL, KIWIM?
I am not sure if this is healthy... or if I am the only one who does this. Anyone else try to gloss over some of this... to make things easier?