Don't know how to get it together
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|Thu, 11-11-2010 - 4:36pm|
I think I was in denial about my recent m/c. Really for a couple days I expressed no emotion and just talked about it like any other boring topic. Now all of a sudden I have all the sadness, anger and frustration as my first time. I was so happy not to have to temp anymore and DTD so many days in a row and fight with DH about the pressure of it all, not to mention all the OPK's and HPT's. Now I am back to square one again.We are NTNP this cycle but that's hard too. And I'm scared to start TTC again, but I want a baby so badly. I am 34 and have no children and have been TTC forever. I just want a baby!!!! Next week my brother and niece are coming and the week after I get to meet my new nephew. He was born the week I m/c and my SIL was not very understanding about why I could not come to the hospital (even though she does live 2 states away). I'm sorry I'm rambling. I'm just so sick of it all and I'm sick of seeing all these people (where I work) have all these children that they never take care of. My one coworker's daughter is pregnant ,again at age 18, she had to give up custody of her first cause she could not handle it, and here we all are, trying so desperately. I wanna scream. Thanks for listening. Hope I didn't offend anyone.