Feeling frustrated and depressed
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|Thu, 01-19-2012 - 9:34pm|
I know I haven't been TTC actively for very long but that doesn't mean I haven't wanted it for the past 3 years anyway. I just recently found out that my sister is pregnant. This will be her 3rd child and I can't help but feel jealous especially since we are living in the same house and I have to hear about it constantly...I'm trying really hard not to be jealous but it's hard. When I was told I started bawling and normally I would wait until I was alone to do that but I couldn't control myself (maybe I really am pregant?) I have been dwelling on TTC this entire month, and I agree with my mom that I am probably becoming obssessed and that's not a good thing because if AF shows up on time I'm going to be devastated. I cry over the dumbest things lately. Earlier I was making egg salad for supper and as I was cutting up the eggs my sister came in and said "Ugh that really stinks it's making my stomach hurt." well I automaticlly starting thinking "It's not making my stomach hurt so I'm probably not pregnant." Which then made me want to cry. I hate being over emotional. I feel like I'm a wreck. My mom and I had a talk and of course I bawled my eyes out to her. Anyway I have so many symptoms but let me explain why I can't count them as symptoms.
1. My breasts hurt very badly ( My breats hurt ALL the time even when I'm not on my period. An ER Dr. diagnosed me with Fibrocystic Breast Disease) So how do I know it's the real deal?
2. I am naseous a lot (my gallbladder is really acting up and I have to have it taken out) So that could be that right there.
3. I am constipated (I am always constipated. I was diagnosed with IBS)
See my problem? I dwell on this too much obviously lol. AF is due on January 23 and I really hope she doesn't