I am feeling so out of sorts.
Ugh, I could have written most of this post word for word. I lost 50 lbs before I got pg back in Feb. and when I found out I was pg I was so happy and let go. When I lost the baby, I let go even more out of sheer depression. I have gained 25 of the 50 lbs I lost back. I only have one pair of black work pants that really fit me anymore so I wear them almost every day hoping to God no one notices.
I'm feeling your pain today too. Pressure to get pg because I'm getting too old and it's just not working...and when it did, I lost them both. I've gained weight too and need to lose some. Pressure because our finances are awful (more to follow on that in a seperate post).
I'm so sorry you're down and hope that things get better