I think I'm done having my pity party

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I think I'm done having my pity party
Wed, 11-17-2010 - 3:34pm

I wrote down in the "Red Tent" section that AF came today (after 3 days of spotting). So much frustration, anger, and sadness came with that. I felt like giving up, but after Chouli's response to me, talking to DH, and getting into a better frame of mind this afternoon, I think I'm ready to pull up my big girl panties and move forward. I will continue with the NFP charting that my doctor wants me to do, but I'm going to do OPK's. I did them ONCE before...a long time ago. My SIL had a few left over from when she was TTC and getting frustrated and finally got pg after using them for a couple months. I used her left-over ones for a cycle, but there weren't many to use and I didn't have enough for any other cycles. I figured we were ok not using them, but everywhere I turn (friends, etc), people are asking me if I've used OPK's. I haven't really given them a fair shot. Now, I'm feeling as though I'm being led to at least give them a chance. I went onto e-bay and DH had some money in his paypal account from things he'd sold and he said I could go ahead and order some. So, I found some where I could get 50 of them for $9.99 + free shipping. I should get them either Saturday or Monday, which will be just fine because AF will be heading out the door by about then. It'll be perfect timing.

I'm hoping that they will find something with the progesterone tests I had done this last cycle, but if not, then I will just hope and pray that the OPK's are what finally do it for us. I need something to work and right now I'm not feeling like the charting is working for me. It might be helping my doctor get a picture of what my cycles look like, but it's just a bunch of a mess for me, personally. Too complicated for me to be entirely sure of O time. I like to have something that will tell me: "Now is the time...get busy!" LOL!

Thank you ladies who listened (read) my rant down below and for helping me to cheer up. I will NOT be let down for long. I would like to set a goal of being pg by my EDD (Jan. 2nd), but I think that might be a stretch. Although, maybe because I bought so many OPK's, I'll have spent my money on them, but not need them all. Wouldn't that be wonderful?

*Trading my down-and-out self for a more positive, upbeat self*

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Registered: 05-12-2008
Wed, 11-17-2010 - 4:23pm

Tee, I am so sorry you are/were having such a hard day.

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Registered: 08-07-2007
Wed, 11-17-2010 - 4:51pm

I'm so glad you're feeling better. We can be stronger than IF.

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