So Sad mad and just feel like Quitting!?!?!?!?!?!

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So Sad mad and just feel like Quitting!?!?!?!?!?!
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Mon, 03-19-2012 - 9:37pm

For the Last 3 months AF has arrived right on CD:28 YAY right now really:( Clomid seems to be Regulating my Periods but not really helping in the Getting Pregnant part:( We have now been on 5 rounds of clomid and next month i am taking a break! I can take it i just need a break and to take care of ME!

NO JUDGMENT ON THIS PLEASE, I do smoke and started smoking after quitting for 10 months after i Lost my Daughter Kloie Lynn at the 19 1/2 week mark:( I know that smoking is not healthy for you so i have called the quit line which is going to help me stop smoking *( another reason that i am taking next month off :)

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Tue, 03-20-2012 - 10:16pm
Thanks ladies it's been so hard :/ I know that it will happen :) I just get so sad :( and kloies birthday is coming up and it's not easy :(( but I have all of you and will update after my re appointment :D thanks so much for all the support <3

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Tue, 03-20-2012 - 9:42pm
Jess-

Huge, huge (((HUGS))) chica. If I had dollar for every time the thought of quitting TTC jumped into my head I could have bought my own island.

After my 2nd miscarriage my body went all whack-a-doodle on me. 23 day cycles, 43 day cycles... you never knew. I wasted so many opks, it was ridiculous and expensive. Taking 3 years to get pregnant in between, and being too stubborn to ask for help made matters worse. When I got help from my OB things started to turn around.

After the 3rd miscarriage my cycles miraculously went back to 28/29 day cycles. It felt like a miracle. Then the HSG and then the clomid, and you know where I am today.

I hate the platitude "hang in there" but I want you to. Your cycles are back on track, and that is a TERRIFIC sign to me. I think that it's awesome that you are getting help for smoking, and no one here blames you for falling back into the cigarette habit again. These losses are hard to take, and coping is hard- whatever works for you works for you.

I'm so glad you are going to the RE- I hope that they can help you too chica. Huge (((HUGS))) and you know I'm here if you ever need to talk. You can PM me any time.

 


 


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Tue, 03-20-2012 - 12:42pm
Sending you tons of (((HUGS))) and P&PTs, Jessica. It's totally not fair that you have these losses, I don't understand it :(

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Tue, 03-20-2012 - 9:52am

Jessica, I am so very sorry.

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Tue, 03-20-2012 - 9:48am
I'm so sorry Jessica. It's okay to be angry and to let that anger out. Nobody wil judge you for beginning to smoke again. I think it's very understandable with the stress you've been under (coming from a former smoker here!) Hang in there honey. Tons and tons of P&PT coming your way.

Shawn 
Mom to DS, July 2009
Expecting our little girl after three m/c - EDD 11/29/12