Turning into a person I don't want to be.

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Turning into a person I don't want to be.
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Thu, 01-26-2012 - 10:11am

Bitter.

Don't get me wrong, I'm happy for people who get pregnant.

Shawn 
Mom to DS, July 2009
Expecting our little girl after three m/c - EDD 11/29/12

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Thu, 01-26-2012 - 1:26pm
Shawn, I'm so sorry chica. I totally understand where you are coming from. It took us three years to get pg only to have a miscarriage in 2008. It took me three more years to get pg late last June, only to miscarry again in August. It SUCKS. Hard core. But I do know that some days are worse than others. And it totally doesn't help that you are are towards the end of your 2WW- hormones are raging (hopefully pg hormones!), and your anxiety level is higher because of the anticipation. CD1 really sucks, CD2 is a little better, CD3 you start looking forward to booting AF out the door and towads O, and catching that eggie.

TTC sucks. TTC after miscarriage is torture, especially when your friends have no trouble conceiving and keeping their pregnancies. Huge, hugs (((HUGS))) chica. Just buckle in tight and ride the roller coaster- there will be high points too. <3

-Court.

 


 


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Thu, 01-26-2012 - 2:03pm
honestly, i think you've just described the vast majority of us on here who've been trying for any length of time. when i first joined, i soooo didn't get the issues with facebook and everyone posting pregnancies. now i have to fight tears with every single freaking announcement. of course we're happy for the preggo ladies. but we want soooooo badly for it to be us! it's frustrating when you do everything right, try so hard and still get BFNs.
i'm always down in the dumps for a while (and yes, i blame the prometrium too!) when you're testing and testing and just get all those single lines staring back at you.
we've put in our time. it's our turn! hoping to see your BFP soon!!

Diane

Expecting #1 (a boy!) on January 16, 2013

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Thu, 01-26-2012 - 2:42pm
Thanks ladies :)

I think it's just hard because I am generally a very positive person, and I don't feel like that as much anymore. But yes, BFN days and CD1 are the worse, and most emotional. Some days are harder than others and yesterday/today are those days.

It's funny, because some days I feel like crying at the drop of a hat, and some days I have a good attitude about things and know that it will happen when it's supposed to.

I know God has a plan, I just wish his plan was the same as mine!!

Courtney - I can't believe it took three years each time. I can't imagine how hard that was!! (and again, SO happy about your bfp! SBV!!!)

Diane - I wish I could just stay off facebook, I don't know if I can :) DH gets mad at me and tells me to just stay off of it. I think I'm just going to end up blocking a bunch or people.

Thanks again ladies. I think all I really needed was a good vent!!!

Shawn 
Mom to DS, July 2009
Expecting our little girl after three m/c - EDD 11/29/12

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Thu, 01-26-2012 - 3:21pm
Right there with you brew! We got pregnant
Right away in august and I mc on my cousins wedding day. When we were able to try again it happened right away again. My cousin (same one) was trying her first month. We got our BFPs on the same day. We mc within a week. She continues. She sends me regular updates with pics of her nonexistent baby bump. This past week she had her ultrasound. It's so hard to be happy for her. Then last night we found out dhs step brother ( not married) has gotten his gf pregnant. I had a total breakdown. Wish it was me but I'm trying to be happy for them.
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Thu, 01-26-2012 - 6:46pm
I will be honest, I have blocked more people than I care to mention... just block their posts into your news feed... that way if you are having a bad day you don't get blindsided, and conversely if you're having a good day & feel like being supportive you can still go onto their page & interact.

I hope your day gets better. ((( hugs)))

 


 


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Fri, 01-27-2012 - 11:00am

I did the same thing last month when my little cousin (who I adore) called me and told me.

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Registered: 07-14-2008
Fri, 01-27-2012 - 10:21pm

There are times in life when we all become "that person."

Stephanie

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