WHy do I torture myself

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Registered: 02-19-2007
WHy do I torture myself
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Sat, 10-30-2010 - 8:42pm

So I decided to stop in another board I used to frequent & see what is going on...

I think 1/2 the board is pregnant. All of these whoops & surprise & boy that was fast posts.

I just started reading a new book about letting go & then I go & read this other board like a fool.

UGH!

*mindy*

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Registered: 03-25-2010
Sat, 10-30-2010 - 9:02pm

I don't know why...I think we're drawn to it like a bad car accident...we just have to look. I'm six weeks away from my EDD and like a fool I clicked on the belly pics thread on another site to see how big these ladies are and realized I could have been right there with them. I stopped looking. What was I thinking? I had to cheer myself up and thought, when I get mine it will be the cutest.

I hope we all get good news soon.

((HUGS))

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Registered: 06-29-2010
Sat, 10-30-2010 - 9:22pm
I do that too, I'm always torturing myself. On YouTube I watched fertility videos about people finally getting pregnant, great idea!!!!!
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Registered: 07-28-2009
Sat, 10-30-2010 - 10:10pm
Yep, I'm with ya...the same way I torture myself when I go to PAL. It's beyond me why I go there!
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Registered: 12-11-2006
Sun, 10-31-2010 - 4:04pm
You too huh ... 6 weeks away for me as well (Dec 15). Today I went into a toy/baby shop for something else and all the grief came back as I watched pregnant mommas walking around buying santa babygros and realizing that I'm not gonna have my Christmas baby with me after all ... you think you've dealt with it but .. do you know, I think getting past the due date is gonna be good for me though - it might just help me let go completely. Oh, and a friend is due on the same date and is totally excited about baby's imminent arrival, I'm happy for her but ... and 2 sis-in-laws AND a close friend due in Feb ... happy for them but it still hurts.
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Registered: 03-25-2010
Sun, 10-31-2010 - 5:20pm

Yeah, it sucks. I guess it's even less than 6 weeks (12/7). What can you do? Some days are good and some are not. I have a feeling that week will be terrible. I have to go with the family to DH's brother and wife's place next month for a baby shower. She's due in March with twins. Right now I'm working on baby quilts for them. DH looked at them and said he wishes we could keep them. Sigh. At least the shower isn't the week of my EDD. Are you TTC again? Sorry, but I don't recall at the moment. I'm waiting on the green light from my RE. I had surgery in September. I think once I get past Christmas it'll be better.

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Registered: 02-19-2007
Sun, 10-31-2010 - 10:05pm
Ya the car accident scene is right.
Im going to do my best to stop since it brought me from happy to sad in about 3 secs.
Now my stupid uterus is making all these pinchy implantationesque feelings. Argh.

Im really going for focusing on what makes me happy & not what isnt. We'll see how long I can make that last.
*mindy*
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Registered: 08-16-2007
Mon, 11-01-2010 - 7:09am

Ughhhh Mindy Im so sorry. It is really hard to see a bunch of posts like that :smileysad:

Maybe you should step away from the other board, and just stick with this one for now. Sometimes I stop by other boards too, but it's not really the same... it just kind of reminds me why I prefer the company of you girls over any other group. But dont beat yourself up about it - "letting go" is a process that takes lots and lots of time. Try to be patient with yourself.

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Registered: 12-11-2006
Mon, 11-01-2010 - 7:39am
as of last night we agreed we are ttc'ing again ... I have under-active thyroid, not to the point of needing medication, but have been working on improving that with natural supplements (since the condition causes increased risk of m/c). Should really wait until another blood test shows if it HAS improved but I'm 40 next year ... don't want to wait too much longer even if we risk another m/c. Plus it might lessen the pain when due date arrives to know that we're actually trying again.
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Mon, 11-01-2010 - 10:11am

Just wanted to send you (((hugs))), I hope your day get better...

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Registered: 02-22-2009
Mon, 11-01-2010 - 12:28pm

How ironic... I'm usually on another board myself, and I came

Finally pregnant after 3 yrs of ttc and 3 losses. Lilypie Pregnancy tickers EDD: 9/18/11

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