i'm done for a while.

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Mon, 12-13-2010 - 11:36pm

AF's mongrel cousin Spot found me today. I've been a wreck since early afternoon. My poor DH thinks I've gone off my rocker (maybe I have?) because the tears just keep flowing. No sobs, no theatrics, just steady, steady tears.

 


 


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Tue, 12-14-2010 - 12:16am

Court, I am so sorry she found you. But hey...I think you've got a good plan there. You've tried it this way, and now you're gonna try it another way. I dont think you're throwing away a cycle at all by doing bcp. I think (and hope and pray) you'll be benefitting from it.

Of course, should you change your mind, I think THAT would be an awesome plan too. Truth is, we gotta do what we feel is best. There are no wrong decisions. And don't give up on that (asinine) little flicker of hope. Its all we've got, and it's all that keeps us going.

I wish I could come up there!! we'd have hot cocoa and cuddle with the kitties and watch sappy movies till ya felt better. hearts and hugs chica...so glad I'll still see ya on el Book-O lol

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Tue, 12-14-2010 - 8:46am

I'm so sorry.

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Tue, 12-14-2010 - 2:34pm

I'm so sorry, Court. I'm heartbroken for you too. :smileysad: I wish I could say something to make you feel better. Please know that you are NOT a failure, hun. It's out of your control. Somehow, someway, you will become a mom.

{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}

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Tue, 12-14-2010 - 3:47pm

I'm so sorry Courtney! Wish I was there so you could cry on my shoulder and we could go have beers or something. Have a talk about what a witch TTCing is. Big hugs to you sistah! You know right where we are when you need a shoulder. Love ya!

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Tue, 12-14-2010 - 4:13pm

Court I am so so so sorry but completely understand how you feel. Every month you find a little hope, just a glimmer and put everything you have on that hope.

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Tue, 12-14-2010 - 5:56pm

I'm so so sorry Court :smileysad: Sending you lots of hugs!!

Katie, DH, DD- Emma (11/27/11), #2 due 10/4/13 : )

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Tue, 12-14-2010 - 6:14pm

Courtney

Just wanted to send some ((hugs)) your way.

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Tue, 12-14-2010 - 8:06pm
I'm sooooooo sorry. BIG HUGS. I know this sucks, I wish I could do or say something to make it better:(
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Tue, 12-14-2010 - 8:28pm

((((HUGS)))) Courtney... we'll miss you.... but completely understand the need to step away for a bit.

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Wed, 12-15-2010 - 2:44am
thanks Meaghan... i wish you were closer too.

i think my furbabies knew i needed that kind of snuggling... they haven't left me alone while i've been home yesterday and today. they do have a soothing effect. :)

 


 


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