One line, two broken hopes.

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One line, two broken hopes.
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Sun, 12-12-2010 - 7:55am

As of seeing that one line at 4am, I am now heading into my 34th cycle of TTC and my 5th IUI. Just waiting on AF to make it CD1.

After all the time DH has been so stauch in his support, optimism, surety. This morning he faltered. He said he doesn't feel like a man anymore. He railed against the unfairness. That we could do everything right

Chouli, 34; DH 45 Lilypie Pregnancy tickers
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Sun, 12-12-2010 - 8:58am

Chouli, I'm so sorry :( I can't tell you how many times DH and I have been through your morning. IUI after IUI where logically speaking we should have gotten pg over and over again, yet we didn't. I wish there was some reasoning behind it. I feel like if I could just make it all make sense, I could better deal with all this.

Anyway ((hugs)) you know you're in good company. Today is my CD 1 and I am also pretty sad. I just want to crawl into bed and not come out today but my parents are here and I can't pout in front of them without answering a birage of questions.

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Sun, 12-12-2010 - 9:21am
Oh Chouli hun I am so so sorry!! I was so sad to read this, we're all here for you. I know nothing I say can really help but just know I'm thinking of you.

Katie, DH, DD- Emma (11/27/11), #2 due 10/4/13 : )

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Sun, 12-12-2010 - 11:49am
Sorry chouli, (((hugs))) sweetie. I hope af doesn't waste her time showing up. My dh had a similar meltdown when I told him my irl friend was pg. All the same emotions came up, and it is so hard to see that happen. I hope this next cycle brings you the gift you've been waiting for.

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Sun, 12-12-2010 - 4:14pm

Oh Chouli -

I was so hoping that we wouldn't see a post from you here - I really did have hope that it was your time... I am so sorry and feel the heartache for you and DH. I'm sure you did everything to try and be so supportive of him, because usually its us breaking down feeling like there is something wrong with us. This gives me a good perspective that DH's can feel like they are "broken" too...

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Sun, 12-12-2010 - 5:27pm

*hug*

I am so sorry...

"Never run faster than your guardian angel can fly!"

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Sun, 12-12-2010 - 6:52pm
Thanks to everyone. We're regrouping together. We're feeling a little better. I decided to try one cycle of injectables. DH wants to keep doing IUIs and set money aside for IVF at the same time. I will comply with his wishes for now and we'll reassess as time passes, I suppose.
Chouli, 34; DH 45 Lilypie Pregnancy tickers
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Sun, 12-12-2010 - 7:20pm

(((HUGS)))

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Sun, 12-12-2010 - 7:25pm

I'm so sorry, HUGS!!!! I wish TTC was not so hard and frustrating. I wish we could all just get our BFP's.

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Mon, 12-13-2010 - 12:26pm

So sorry, Chouli...