Tee

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Tee
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Sun, 10-30-2011 - 3:25am

Where are you? Everything ok?

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In reply to: chouli77
Mon, 10-31-2011 - 8:26am
Hey Chouli...Courtney mentioned you had asked about me. I'm sorry I've been scarce. I've been avoiding the board. We're taking a TTC break that may or may not be permanent. My cycles have been super short and AF's visits have gotten shorter. My progesterone, seems to be out of whack unless I supplement. I'm not entirely sure what's going on. I think 34 is a bit young to be having pre-menopausal symptoms, but who knows? I'm so tired of the frustrations each month (and the months are getting shorter. It's only been 21 days since AF arrived and I'm already on day 3 of spotting. I believe O came at a record early time of cd12 and spot has arrived at a record early time of 8dpo. But, we're also just so tired of the monthly disappointment, but if I put it into a mindset that I'm just going to get AF every month and we're done TTC right now, it doesn't hurt so much. I just haven't felt like I can contribute here without reverting back to the obsession. :(
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In reply to: chouli77
Tue, 11-01-2011 - 3:39am

I'm so sorry your TTC journey may be comin to an end, I sincerely hope you get a surprise BFP in the future *hugs*

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In reply to: chouli77
Tue, 11-01-2011 - 5:04am
Hey, I'm sorry to drag you back. I'm 34 too, and I know the women in my family (great gma, gma, ma, sis) all experienced early menopause. I didn't know it would make shorter cycles though. I thought they got longer. Maybe you're experiencing some other problem. I'm sure you've talked to your GYN or RE, right?
Just know that you're missed here.
Chouli, 34; DH 45 Lilypie Pregnancy tickers
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In reply to: chouli77
Tue, 11-01-2011 - 8:36am
Haven't talked to GYN about the shorter cycles because they weren't markedly shorter when I went over the summer. I've just noticed in the past 3-4 cycles that they've been more "irregular" in that respect. Shorter in length, but also AF is only sticking around for maybe 3 days instead of 5-6. And my flow is definitely not as heavy. It's heavy for a day and then almost immediately goes back to spotting. Still doing the spotting for about 5 days pre-AF, though.

Anyway, thanks for thinking of me. :) I've just been so quiet because I don't feel like I have as much to contribute these days since I'm not sure we'll be coming back to TTC. We're still not preventing, but I feel like I'm taking a page out of Chelle's book...need to move on. My kiddo is nearly 9 years old and I'm not sure whether I want to be "starting over" again at this point or not. A baby would always be welcome, but I also don't want to continue putting life on hold for a baby that likely won't ever show up.
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In reply to: chouli77
Sat, 11-05-2011 - 12:05pm

Tee - Do you have a history of ovarian cysts by any chance?

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In reply to: chouli77
Tue, 11-08-2011 - 9:38am
Nope, no history of ovarian cysts. I'm in a pattern of being pretty apathetic about the whole TTC process right now. AF has come and gone (really light again) and I'm still not feeling much like coming back to the TTC process. Last cycle, I kind of got a little excited about some EWCM I had and we made sure to DTD that night, but in the 2ww, I had no excitement. No anticipation. No dreams of how a baby would change things in our lives if THIS was the month. So, I think right now, we're in full-fledged on-hold mode.

That being said, DH brought up adoption to me. It was simply in reference to his browsing his employer/employee intranet site...but he said he noticed that his company contributes up to $5,000 per year and up to $10,000 lifetime toward adoption costs. My thinking and focus has somewhat shifted. When I asked him about whether he was ready to talk about adoption, he said, "not yet." But, he also said that he's not ready only because it's just a LOT of money. (I'm not sure whether we'd have to put the money out up front and then his employer would reimburse?) BUT...if I could convince him to think along the lines of foster-to-adopt (which I'm still trying to wrap my brain around at this point, but I want to talk to a couple of people who I know who have done that and get their perspective), it would be VASTLY cheaper and we'd only have to pay for legal fees with regard to the adoption, if we had to pay anything at all (some cases, the legal fees are waived, and there aren't the same adoption fees - we'd just have to pay for a home study). So, that's where I'm at right now - thinking more in terms of how in the world would I possibly get my house home study ready, rather than TTC at the right time of the month. Definitely a shift in focus going on here. And, I'm continuing to pray that my husband will open his heart and his mind to adoption in some form. I think his mind and heart are open to the idea...I just think the cost of adoption is what scares him, since we aren't wonderfully well-off enough to put out those costs toward adoption out of our own pocket.
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In reply to: chouli77
Tue, 11-15-2011 - 9:52am

It sounds like you're at peace with where you are with the TTC journey.