Update on me! (No more TTC & I'm ok!)
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|Tue, 03-01-2011 - 9:55am|
I wanted to update (I hope some of you remember me)! I finally came to a place where I could let go of having another child. I don't know exactly how it came about but it started with a HUGE fight with dh about ttc. We talked about divorcing and he said some very hurtful things. For months after that I felt myself detaching from our relationship but didn't know what to do. I was hurt and angry and kept thinking we'd be better apart. I had started letting go of the baby idea during that time cause nothing sounded worse than bringing a child into this mess. Well we had a "just the two of us" vacation to Hawaii planned during Thanksgiving and I was dreading it. I kept thinking what will we do there, will we get along, will we want to do the same things, usually we have our kids to keep us busy..... Alone together sounded scary. Well it was amazing and as corny as it sounds we fell in love all over again. We have decided we want to try living there for a while when our youngest graduates (1192 days & counting) That really helps cause I was terrified of what my life would be when they all left and now I have a focus! Fortunately life has been busy so that helps too, we have two senior daughters this year so prom dress shopping, college decisions, graduation and grad parties have taken over my brain lately! I still have twinges of baby fever but I know it's not whats best for us. We are using the NFP method so if God thinks it should happen it still can but I'm totally ok if it doesn't. I will come by and keep an eye on you guys, I'm still praying for you all to get your bfp's!!!!!