I am so very sorry for your loss.
I don't have any advice for you but I do understand where you are coming from. I just suffered my first miscarriage too. I have a 8 year old daughter. I am also dealing with the questions of maybe I did something to cause it. My fear is that this was my first cycle trying with my SO...his ex-wife suffered 4 miscarriages and I am hoping that there isn't something wrong with him. Maybe it was just meant to be in my case but it's still so very hard to wrap my head around that too.
There's a great group of ladies here and we all understand what this is like. Welcome to the group.
As with all of the women on this board, I understand what you're going through.
Thank you ladies for all your support.