2nd MC, Downhearted
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|Fri, 09-17-2010 - 1:07pm|
Hi Ladies. I've just suffered my second miscarriage at 4w5d. The first was back in the spring at 4w2d. I lurked on this board throughout the summer, but could never bring myself to post. Now, I know no one else who could understand.
The first MC was easier. I knew the statistics. I knew how common MC's are. I was able to pick my self back up and move on pretty easily. This time though - its just hard. I feel incredibly overwhelmed. Its so daunting to think of starting all over again. Another 3-6 months TTC, and then will the pregnancy stick? How many times will I go down this road? How long can I do this?
What makes it both easier and more difficult is that I already have a child. My DS just turned two, and his pregnancy was so simple. We decided to try - one cycle, 1 try on the last possible fertile day, and then boom pregnant and nine months later, healthy boy. Was he our miracle child, our fluke? Did something go wrong in his delivery that damaged me (he was born via emergency c-section)?
Or are these MC's the fluke? Is it bad luck on the draw that we have been faced with 2 nonviable pregnancies in a row?
I have no answers and I think that's worst of all. All I have are worries, and tears, and this yearning for the other children I know were meant to have. My son is not supposed to be an only child.
I am sharing this with you ladies because I know you have been where I am, and that many of you have faced greater heartache than I yet you are still able to go on hoping and believing and encouraging that faith in others.
Missing my angel babies.