Greetings ...

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Registered: 08-01-2008
Greetings ...
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Tue, 08-03-2010 - 1:41am

Hi Everyone,

Just introducing myself to the group.

My name is Julie. I'm 36. After overcoming a lot of apprehension (that's putting mildly) about becoming a mom, we started trying in May 2010, and I got pregnant right away. The pregnancy didn't get very far and I miscarried at the 5 week mark. It was upsetting, but after a brief discussion with my NP and OB/GYN, we decided to go ahead and try right away. I got pregnant a second time and miscarried this past July at 6 weeks. I don't seem to have any trouble conceiving, but my body doesn't seem to be interested in carrying the pregnancies too far. My new OB/GYN has performed some routine tests, but is resistant to run anything more and has given us the green light to go ahead and try again.

My cycle started up like clockwork after the second miscarriage and I'm back to normal as though nothing's happened. I've just finished my first period and am on a 26 day cycle. This means we will more than likely try again the second week of September. On a scale of 1-10, my anxiety about trying again is probably at an 8 right now. I've lost some friends as a result of the first miscarriage. I carry a lot of guilt about the pregnancies and those people who have stepped out of my life. This has been a summer I would like to forget.

That being said, my anxiety about trying again also leads to anxiety about extreme medical interventions we can't afford and private adoptions that are also too expensive. This leaves us with fostering to adoption, which I've witnessed a lot of heartbreak so I typically break down crying and just declare I'm only fostering and adopting dogs. It's a bit of a vicious cycle in my head and I hate that I can't wrap my head around this rationally.

That being said, I have had a good days here and there. I love my DH. He's an amazing partner in every way. I'm fortunate to have him. And I'm fortunate to have the three giant furbabies all sleeping under my feet.

Thanks for letting me share.

iVillage Member
Registered: 12-13-2009
In reply to: yuehej
Tue, 08-03-2010 - 4:34am

Welcome to our little (fantastic) group. I'm sorry for your losses, and the circumstances that brought you here! But, you are in the company of a lot of great women with a lot of information to share. Jump right in and post away!

I hope your stay here is short!






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Registered: 03-04-2010
In reply to: yuehej
Tue, 08-03-2010 - 7:39am

Welcome to the board, Julie. I'm sorry that you have to be here & I hope your stay is short. This is a wonderful group of women. We've all been there & we all get it. I hope that we can offer you the support that you need to get through this.







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Registered: 06-25-2002
In reply to: yuehej
Tue, 08-03-2010 - 8:32am
Welcome to the board Julie...I am so sorry for your losses, I know that I can't say anything to make the pain go away, but we will all be here for you.

TTC #1 October/November 2009


BFP December 14th, 2009 :)


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Registered: 03-25-2010
In reply to: yuehej
Tue, 08-03-2010 - 9:29pm

Julie,

Welcome! I am so glad you found this group and am sorry about what caused you to discover it. I think it has really helped me. I love how supportive it has been. You can ask any question, share anything, and not be judged. We all need a soft spot to land. I'm glad your DH is great, mine is too and that helps a bunch!

Lydia

Me(30), DH(30)...Our TTC journey:

~1993: Dx of bicornuate uterus (BU) on u/s

September 2003: begin wedded bliss! (on BCP)

Fall 2007: HSG results consistent with BU

Fall 2008: here we go, bye-bye BCP

November 2008: DH in hospital, ?CP/horrid AF

Winter 2008: back on BCP

Spring/Summer 2009: last chemo, radiation for DH

January 2010: bye-bye BCP, waiting

March 2010: green light to TTC

April 2010: BFP (4/1), beta ~900 (4/2)

May 2010: m/c (5/30)

June 2010: regrouping, septum (SU) vs. BU

July 2010: looks like surgery this fall


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