Hi there..I'm new to this board.......

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Hi there..I'm new to this board.......
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Wed, 04-02-2003 - 6:32pm
.....but not to the network in general. Just haven't found enough support at other boards, and recently left TTC after Loss due to alot of messy stuff there. Seems you cannot voice any sort of inner upset there or they get angry.......so here I am.

I am April, mom to 3 yr old Julianna (Jules) and wife of 5 yrs to Mark. Live in Ontario Canada. We started ttc in Oct 02 and conceived right away with #2 (as fast as we did with Jules) and lost that pregnancy Nov 11 at about 4wks gest......very early but very awful as well. Since then, absolutely no luck and lots of anger, sadness, frustration and a mound of monthly symptoms that have driven me insane basically.

I am hoping to just fit in......I am not really great during the 2ww and can be easily moody and frustarted and personally I have a hard time posting or reacting to BFPs so I tend to stay back a bit......but if you all can handle that I would like to try it here.

Hugs

April

April

Mom to Julianna 11/28/99

Boo ^i^ 11/02

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Wed, 04-02-2003 - 10:12pm
Welcome, April, glad you found us. So sorry about your loss. I have found this to be a really supportive group and we have had very few problems on this board. Everyone seems to be extremely caring and sensitive to other's feelings. We try to warn everyone in our messages if something might be offensive or if there is a pregnancy mentioned, so that you can skip over those if you want. I know with the new boards it seems to be a little more difficult to do this than it used to be!

I hope you find support here and wish you luck as you TTC.

Anna

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Thu, 04-03-2003 - 9:46am
Welcome, April! You will be just fine here! Glad to have you! I'm sorry for your losses. I too suffered from early miscarriage and it is the most traumatic thing to happen to me in my life. I hope you get your bfp soon! Jacqui
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Thu, 04-03-2003 - 9:53am
I am sorry that you haven't gotten the needed support on other boards. I have tried other boards as well and I just didn't fit in. I have been on this board for the past 3 months and it has proven to be consistently wonderful! So, I wish you the same experience with us. We welcome you with open arms!

I am so sorry about your loss. My birthday is 11-11 and I feel blessed to share it with your little angel. I lost my baby at 11.5 weeks on 11-30-02. I have been TTC for the past two months without luck. I feel the same frustration, anger, saddness, etc.... this is truly the most challenging time of my life.

Don't feel bad about not being able to read BFP posts. I find that some days I avoid them like a plague and other days I search them out to give me hope. After all, one can only handle so much when dealing with TTCAM.

((HUGS)

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Thu, 04-03-2003 - 8:54pm
Anna thank you. I look forward to getting to know you all.......and hopefully get that bfp soon.

April

April

Mom to Julianna 11/28/99

Boo ^i^ 11/02

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Thu, 04-03-2003 - 8:55pm
Jacqui


Thank you. It is the most horrible thing to happen......once the shock wears off you are in a state of unknown........

April

April

Mom to Julianna 11/28/99

Boo ^i^ 11/02

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Thu, 04-03-2003 - 8:57pm
Paula thank you.......it feels good to be understood......not judged. I am having a hard time, hoping to feel better soon. This is the most difficult time exactky how you said.

Hugs

April

April

Mom to Julianna 11/28/99

Boo ^i^ 11/02