I am back again

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Registered: 06-22-2004
I am back again
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Thu, 04-21-2011 - 1:04pm
Well, looks like another one of us from the October board is on here. My doc couldn't find the heartbeat on the doppler so sent me for a sono to make sure everything was alright. We had already seen the heartbeat on the sonogram at 7 weeks. So we go over expecting to see a bouncing baby in there and there was not. My baby's heart stopped at 8+4. So, I had a D&C yesterday and here I am bruised, bleeding and heartbroken. My doctor said that it may be an issue with progesterone or some sort of hormonal abnormality. They sent everything to a lab to see if they can figure out what caused this miscarriage. I don't know how long it's going to be but I will be waiting. They said I lost a lot of blood during my surgery (1000 ml's) and that my hemoglobin is only 10.4....so I am tired all the time. I think I got a unit of blood at the hospital although I am not sure about that. I am going to have to ask when I go to my follow up appointment. What kind of testing can I do to figure this mess out? I don't even know where to go from here. It's not a getting pregnant issue....its sustaining a pregnancy. I am so lost!

Here is a very nasty vent part so don't read it if you don't want to:
I feeling like a complete failure. I don't know why it is that I struggle to have a child and you have people having children that don't take care of the one's they have. Why is it that I was a 30 year old crack head on welfare...that I would probably have 10 kids no problem. Why is it that people like us have to suffer. It's just not fair. My husband is being deployed in September and what if he doesn't come home.....this just stinks. I hate it that I have to go through this and I hate it that I have to explain to a 6 year old little girl why she isn't having a brother or sister. I was optimistic about this pregnancy and obviously that didn't work out for me.

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Registered: 06-22-2004
Fri, 04-22-2011 - 9:41am
Thanks so much girls! I will make an appointment with my doctor. I know he told me that it could be a progesterone issue but that's all he really said. I am going to see if I can't get some testing done while I am waiting to try again. I don't know when we will try again but I just want a baby so badly. Much love to you ladies for all the support you have given me. Hopefully I can be as helpful to you as you have been for me.
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Registered: 05-11-2010
Fri, 04-22-2011 - 12:02pm

I am so sorry that you're back here and hope that your stay will be a short one.

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Registered: 06-22-2004
Fri, 04-22-2011 - 3:18pm
Thanks julia! I am not sure why I lost so much blood. I have a follow up in 2 weeks and I was planning on asking then. It's kinda scary when I think about it because I don't know if something went wrong or what. My mind is where yours is. It sucks and it's hard to see all these people with children they don't deserve or want to take care of. It pisses me off really. Don't worry about ranting, I did it. It makes me feel better, especially knowing that I am not the only one that feels that way.
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Registered: 06-29-2010
Sat, 04-23-2011 - 11:44pm
I'm so sorry You are going thru this. I often think the same thing that for some it's so easy and many of us struggle. I have worked with so many families with numerous children who get taken to foster care cause their parents don't take care of them. It just sux. I hope you heal quickly. HUGS!!!

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