I'm an eedjit too

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Registered: 12-11-2006
I'm an eedjit too
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Thu, 08-19-2010 - 4:55am

Hi all ... I've been reading the board since my m/c in May but haven't posted before. My m/c was very drawn out - natural m/c at home on May 30, but it was incomplete, so after TWO lots of medication to sort it out (which did absolutely nothing), and several appointments and scans, I finally had to opt for d&c on July 9. If I had to do it over, I'd go for the d&c immediately!The whole process was very depressing. Thankfully I have a toddler and 1-yr old, otherwise I'm not sure how I'd have coped! Hats off to some of you other ladies!

NOW to the eedjit bit (that's Irish for idiot!). AF hasn't turned up yet. We haven't BD'd at all since the m/c because I quite frankly haven't been up for it. First time was some time (early?) last week but I can't remember the day. Yesterday I started feeling a few suspiciously pg-like symptoms. Feeling the same today but stronger. AF? PG? I KNOW it's really too early to test but was in such a state this morning that I thought what the heck, I'll test anyway!

The result was predictably negative. I thought this would settle me down but it hasn't cos I know I'm way too early.

Since I have only one test left I have to make myself wait until at least Sunday, and by then AF may show up anyway.

The thing is I can't even remember what day we BD'd, so if this is a pregnancy I have no way to date it! :-(

Still missing my baby and thought I was over it but got quite emotional again last week, so maybe these symptoms are just wishful thinking.

So, with that jumbled introduction :-) I just wanted to say thanks to all the ladies on this board who have encouraged and supported me without knowing it!

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Registered: 12-14-2004
Thu, 08-19-2010 - 8:43am

Welcome to the board! I'm sorry to hear that your m/c was such an ordeal. I mean, it's never easy, but most aren't THAT botched up physically. I'm glad that you're finally physically recovering from that. It sounds like you're doing well emotionally, too. Of course you miss your baby and still have emotions over that -- it would be more strange if you didn't.

As far as the possible pg, if you are pg, and your worst issue is dating it, you're in good shape! The actual dates really don't matter that much in the long run, and an early u/s, will be just fine for estimating the gestational age of the baby.

If you're not pg yet, well, I'm sure from your reading the board, you know that those IPS are the worst for us when we want so badly to be pg, and it just hasn't happened yet. (And it sounds like, with a toddler, a 1 yo, and another pg since, that you are pretty good at catching that egg!) FX it'll happen soon for you! While you're waiting, definitely check out the symptoms other people are musing over in the 2WW folder, and check out other hang-out spots and chat threads around the board. P&PT for you! (And I hope to see you post your bfp news in the pregnancy folder before too long!)

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I'm pg with #4, with 5 1/2 losses along the way.


09/2003 -- chem pg.
10/2003 -- bfp with DS Noah (07/20/2004).
03/2005 -- chem pg.
04/2005 -- bfp with DD Catie (12/29/2005).
06/2008 -- chem pg.
07/2008 -- bfp with DS Drew (03/13/2009) and vanishing twin.
03/2010 -- bfp ending with m/c at 6 weeks.
05/2010 -- chem pg.
07/2010 -- bfp! Stick, Baby, Stick!

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Registered: 10-05-2006
Thu, 08-19-2010 - 12:01pm
I am sorry your ordeal was so long but I'm glad it is over physically. I know emotionally it will always be there. I know it is hard playing the waiting game and I hope you get your BFP soon.

Christy
TTC 1st child since 2006
June 16, 2010: IUI w/ Femara BFP (Ectopic - Methotrexate shot) RE sidelined me until November cycle for next IUI :(

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Registered: 10-08-2007
Thu, 08-19-2010 - 7:26pm

I am sorry for your loss.

Mandy


ttc #1 since March 2010


4/10  Miscarriage