Introducing myself

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Registered: 09-15-2010
Introducing myself
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Wed, 09-15-2010 - 3:42pm

Hi Ladies, I have been lurking here for a couple of months now and finally introducing myself.(my husband thinks its creepy that I talk about some of you like I know you)lol. On June 5, I delivered a stillborn little boy at 22 weeks. It was very hard for me and still is. I guess I decided today would be the day I introduce myself because af came this morning after my first month of ttc. It feels like another loss. This was my second full cycle and they are still irregular. I was hoping to be pregnant by his due date:(

****kids mentioned********
I have two beautiful daughters who are getting older(as children tend to do) and now I feel like as time goes by the farther apart they will be. I'm sure some of you can relate. I know it has only been one month, but in my mind I lost like 8 months. We will continue trying though, dh likes that part the best.

I don't take any meds and have never charted. Although, I stalk some of your charts, like I know wth I'm looking for. I guess this month I will do the opks, those seem easy enough.

I guess technically I should be on the ttc after still birth board, but I like this board and it's a lot more active. Like I said I feel like I know some of you and I even pray for your bfp's when I know you are about to test. Maybe that is a little creepy.lol. I can't wait to chat with you. I am on here every couple of days since I have not gone back to work yet.(2 ladies due at the same time)

Thanks for listening......
Melissa

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Registered: 04-13-2010
Wed, 09-15-2010 - 5:25pm

Hi Melissa, welcome to the board... I'm so sorry for your loss. My little boy was stillborn at 35 weeks on March 26, 2010. I tried the ttc after stillbirth board, but I was here years ago, and I just needed a faster paced board, this board is truly the most awesome board I have ever been on... and being that I've been around ivillage since 1999 - I've been on a bunch ;)

I love that you talk about these ladies as if you know them - I do the same thing :)

AND... you sound like you'll totally fit in... "I stalk some of your charts, like I know wth I'm looking for." haha love it!!!!

I'd recommend doing both temping and opk's especially if you haven't done them before - reason is, if you haven't done them before, you may miss what you're looking for but if you're doing both, then you have them to reference each other with. I know for me, I don't always catch my surge with opk's - I did this cycle cuz I was using them literally every single time I peed :)

Anyway, welcome, I hope your stay here will be short!



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Wed, 09-15-2010 - 5:42pm
Melissa,
I am so happy you decided to post. This board has been a lifesaver to me dealing with my Ectopic Loss. The Ectopic Loss board is not very active either and I prefer this one too. I am very sorry for your loss and I know it is super painful when AF comes knocking. I hope you get your sticky BFP soon.
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Registered: 09-24-2004
Wed, 09-15-2010 - 8:46pm

Welcome Melissa and I'm so sorry for your loss.

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Wed, 09-15-2010 - 9:00pm

Melissa,
I'm so incredibly sorry for the loss of your son. I know there's nothing I can say to make the pain go away, just know that I am truly sorry.

*Children mentioned*
Like you, I have 2 daughters. If I conceive again anytime soon, they will be 11 and 6 when the baby comes. I worry about the age difference all the time & every loss I have & every time AF comes knocking, that's another month or two or 3 that my children will be further apart. I just have to keep reminding myself that no matter the age difference, they will love each other and be there for each other. DH & his brother are 13 years apart & they are very close. My brother-in-law is 16 years old & he idolizes DH. It's really wonderful to see them together. Just remember that a sibling is a sibling, no matter the age difference.






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Registered: 12-08-2009
Wed, 09-15-2010 - 10:06pm

Melissa, I am so very sorry for the loss of your baby at 22 weeks. I cannot imagine how absolutely devastating that experience has been for you and your whole family. It makes me want to cry just thinking about it...!
You are totally welcome here at TTCAM and we are glad to have you. Thank you for introducing yourself and sharing a little more about your situation and your family, DH and kids. If you have any questions about what to expect, tips for TTC after loss, how to deal with the grief... just ask. We are all here to help each other through this roller-coaster journey.

I hope to see more of you around here in the weeks to come.
Let us know how those OPKs work out for you this cycle.
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Registered: 09-15-2010
Wed, 09-15-2010 - 11:39pm

Thank you ladies for your support. Today has been such a hard day.

I feel like I should be having contractions instead of these af cramps.

I am sorry we have to meet each other under these circumstances, but, here we are... and here I am.

P.S.

I Guess I will have a glass of wine tonight. Why? Because I can.

Melissa

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Registered: 02-18-2005
Thu, 09-16-2010 - 11:45am

I am so, so sorry for your loss :'(