I am so sorry that you have to be in this group but glad that you found us.
Welcome and I'm so sorry for your loss.
Im so sorry for ypur loss. It is a very devastating thing to have to live through. Im glad youve found this baord though, it can be a real source of support and encouragement as you try to heal and move forward and begin to TTC again.
As for how to deal, everyone grieves and deals with their emotions in different ways. It helps me to talk about my experiences, to use online forums like this one, as well as blog or journal. Another thing that was a tremendous help to me was to get some kind of tangible reminder of the babies I had lost. It could be anything (necklace, ring, bracelet, keychain, photo book or scrapbook, a memory box, plant a tree in their honor) but the idea is to have something tangible that you can see and touch and feel.
Let us know if you have anymore questions.We are all here to help each other.
I am so sorry about your loss.