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Welcome to the board! I'm sorry for your loss. It is so hard to hear about other pregnancies/babies...especially right after a loss. You've come to the right place for support!

I'm sorry to hear about your loss :( I hope you find comfort here on your TTC journey and that you get a sticky little one very soon. It is very hard to hear about those around you getting pregnant when you miss your LO (little one) and want to be pregnant so badly.
~Katie

welcome, you've found a great group of women. I'm so sorry for your loss.

I totally know how you feel with no one knowing how you feel - I had my first miscarriage nearly 12 years ago, and until this past month, no one that I know of in my friends or family had experienced a miscarriage. It makes you feel so different.

It's totally normal to not be comfortable around other people's kids. 5 years after our first loss and after 4 years dealing with infertility, it seemed that nearly my entire family had fallen pregnant - all of them except for me. It was so hard for me to be around all of that, we actually moved 1800 miles away! Reason was that I just couldn't be there anymore. There ended up being like an ungodly number of babies born in the family that year - like 10 or 15 or something (Amy, do you know that number for sure?) And it wasn't until just 3 years ago that we finally moved back. And I can't tell you how many family kids later as I have stopped counting. All I know is I want a baby up on my grandma's wall who will have a changing picture.

I have good days and bad days - some days I LOVE little kids/babies - other days dealing with other people's kids makes me want to slit my wrist. It's all normal - all the feelings of, well, jealousy - they're all normal.

Just know that when no one else is there, or no one else understands, we are here, and we totally understand.