Scared about trying again when not over previous losses
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|Thu, 02-10-2011 - 7:33am|
This is my first post on anything like this so not really sure where to start but pretty sure it will help to talk to people who have been through/are going through the same thing - I don't know the abbreviations either so bear with me.
I have had 2 MC, one in Dec 09 and one June 10, the second one hit harder and I just threw myself into work to try and get passed it, but since then it's like something is missing in me, I've always been a very strong, independent and strong person who can just get on with things when things go wrong - I know thats not always the way to cope but it's worked for me for anything else.
Since the second mc I have avoided all talk - or thought -of babies, pregnancy or anything related to that. If I came into direct contact with anything related I would get sad and teary, sometimes hysterically - one of my best friends recently told me she was pregnant and I can't even speak to her now - and this is 7 months on - I don't want it to be like that. I'm generally much more sensitive then I used to be and get upset about things that would never have affected me before.
We had tests and apparently there is nothing wrong and we've just been unlucky (which I know should put us in a good position and we are luckier than others in our situation) but now we are ttc again and I feel that if everything works out ok this time then I will be ok, but if it doesn't .. I don't know how I will react to it when I don't really feel that I have dealt properly with whats happened before.
My mum and husband feel that I should talk to someone - especially as we are ttc again - but I don't know who to talk to, is anyone going through/has gone through the same thing?