Waiting

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Registered: 08-27-2013
Waiting
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Tue, 08-27-2013 - 10:21am

I am so blessed to have a happy healthy 3 year old boy that is my world.  We decided to start trying for #2 in December and got pregnant in January.  Everything seemed to be going fine, I scheduled my 1st ultrasound for 12 weeks on my wedding anniversary, great joy right?!  They couldn't find a heartbeat and the baby was measuring too small.  I had a DNC the next day.

Because I am 37 I decided to go to the fertility doctor.  They did find some utering polyps which I had removed in July.  The doctor also raised my Synthroid dose.  I just had my first TTC cycle and I had every pregnancy symptom in the book (I had the exact same thing the month before I got pregnant with my last pregnancy).  I took several tests, because I was just sure that the positive was coming, but it's not. Cry.  I know it's just one month, but it's so sad thinking I have another 2 weeks until I can try again and then another 2 weeks to wait and it just seems like a never ending cycle.  I have so many fears, some founded, some not, but it is so frustrating and lonely.  Just nice to find a place to know I am not alone and find support.

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Registered: 08-27-2013
In reply to: Kelynn76
Sat, 08-31-2013 - 9:47pm
That is exactly how I feel, and I am 37, so I feel time is even more urgent. Thank you for your support!
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In reply to: Kelynn76
Sat, 08-31-2013 - 9:45pm
Thank you, and thank you for being here!!!
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In reply to: Kelynn76
Sat, 08-31-2013 - 9:44pm

Thanks for the support!  I am definetly not pregnant :( I also recently had my synthroid level raised, I had forgotten that it really messes with my body during my cycle and I believe that is why I was having all of the symptoms.  I start the OPK on Monday, fingers crossed!  Thanks again, it's nice to know other understand!

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In reply to: Kelynn76
Thu, 08-29-2013 - 4:07am

I am so sorry to hear about your loss hun :( coming from someone that has had 5 losses I totally understand. It does however get easier and you have a great group of women here to help you get through it! I know TTC can suck and TTCAM is WORSE. hang in there and welcome .

~Jessica~

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In reply to: Kelynn76
Wed, 08-28-2013 - 11:28am

Sorry for your loss. ((HUGS)) I know what you mean about waiting and having uterine polyps removed as well. This is a great board for support.

Just asking, but is it possible you tested too early? Has your cycle changed at all after the m/c and polyp removal?

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In reply to: Kelynn76
Tue, 08-27-2013 - 10:58am

I'm so sorry for your loss. A m/c makes ttc a completely different ball game and I always felt like every month I wasn't pg after my m/c was stolen time that I should have been pg which made it like I was runnin a race continually. Try not to stress too much (easier said than done I know), it'll happen and your LO will be totally worth it! Come here to vent anytime and we're here to help you along *hugs*