Baseline - so ready to be done with all this

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Baseline - so ready to be done with all this
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Tue, 05-10-2011 - 2:46pm
So I had my baseline this morning and it just reinforced for me that this is definitely my last cycle with an RE.

Two things bothered me about it, one VASTLY more than the other.


1) My antral follicle count was lower than I am used to although by no means “bad” just not the best possible. See info below: my antral count was 12 (7 on the left, 5 on the right).


Less than 4: Extremely low count, pg rate extremely reduced

4-7; Low count, lower than average pg rate

8-10; Somewhat reduced, slightly reduced pg rate

11-14; Normal – intermediate, VERY slightly reduced pg rate

15-26; Normal – good, best pg rate

27 and up; Possibly polycystic, at risk of OHSS, possible egg quality issues


They said it was a perfect count and they are not worried about it in the LEAST. They don’t know I know exactly what “normal” is and I can’t be placated. Anyway, that is not really a huge concern for me because antral follicle counts are guessing at best. They are counting little black circles and they tend to run together on the screen so it is far from an exact science plus there are almost always some that are too small to see and count. So at the end of the day, this is not my biggest issue.

2) *THIS* is the part that really chaps my – well you know :) it upsets me…

First of all, you should know I told them the truth about my CD. I said I was mistaken yesterday and today is really CD 4 not CD 3. It wasn’t a big deal, they got over it. But if I had told them that when I was making my appt, they would have given me crap about it and made me come in on Monday and there was just no way I was going to do that. Ends justifies the means for me :)

So typically they have come back for my first follicle check on CD 10. Well, last time I came in on CD 10, my LH was through the roof and I had to speed home in the middle of a work day to trigger to keep from ovulating on my own. It was only by the grace of God that we caught it in time. 12 hours later and I probably would have been toast. Ovulating on your own is NOT good because you will likely only release the biggest follicle, MAYBE the two biggest. Triggering gets all the mature ones most of the time.

So they told me to come back on CD 10 which is this coming Monday. I said “Uhhh are you sure that’s a good idea considering what happened last time?” The nurse said okay, why don’t you come in on CD 9. Great! Sounds good to me! Well, CD 9 is on a Sunday – weekends are only for IUI’s and IVF’s , they don’t do follicle checks on weekends typically. So she says she will talk to the dr and call me back. She calls back and tells me that the dr said to come back on CD 10. I didn’t argue. I know there is no point. I will just end up upset and getting nowhere.

So help me God, if I O on my own because they wouldn’t come in on a weekend I will just totally lose it in there. You’ll see it on Dateline “Crazy Woman upends Atlanta Fertility Clinic”

Anyway, everything else was good. No cysts, uterus looks good. All systems go. I will continue my injections and go back in on Monday.

I just can’t wait for this cycle to be over so I can walk away from all this for good. I think fate makes you tired and angry on purpose so that giving up is not so painful…
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I'm really sorry things have been so difficult for you.

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Oh Michelle. I hope this last attempt is your miracle in the making. I know that for me I always think if I can just quit trying, maybe I'll be 'that' girl. But if I quit what do I have left. I hate that feeling. I agree about fate making you tired on purpose, you remember that song, I'm totally pulling the words out of context but it's perfect... fate smiled at destiny, laughed as she... I'm always like laughed as she looked at me, said this child will suffer in life and love and with family...


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Registered: 05-11-2010

Michelle - That's total crap that they can't get you in on Sunday!

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Oh Chelle,
I totally get how you are feeling and it is totally justifyable.

Fx that you don't O on your own cause I don't want to see you in the news. LOL. ;-)

Seriously though, I just want to send some great big {{cyber hugs}} to you.

Sherilyn
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Registered: 09-24-2004

I can't believe you've put up with that clinic for this long.

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There are really only three in my area. I've donated eggs at one so I can't be a patient there. The other one isn't in my network so my insurance won't pay them. So I'm left with this one! So glad it's my last cycle!
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ugh, frustrating.

Kelly, mom to 4 year old Lexi, wife to Rob TTC Number 2 since April 2010, with a loss in June 2010 at 4.5 weeks, and a loss in April 2011 at 8 weeks (possibly ectopic). Saw the RE in May 2011, we were moving forward with testing and an IUI when we