Probably going to scrap this whole cycle

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Probably going to scrap this whole cycle
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Sun, 01-30-2011 - 1:07pm

Nurse just called. My E2 is almost 1,000. That is REALLY high for not having any mature follicles but they can't tell how much of that is coming from my follicles and how much of it is coming from my Estrace with is straight Estrogen. I am betting most of it is coming from the Estrace because it just doesn't make any sense to have a level that high without mature follicles. I was told to take my current dose and come back in on Tuesday.

Anyway, had a good talk with the nurse. Not good news, but a good talk. She said that when Dr. Perloe says that we should not give up on this cycle and that we just have to keep at it and be patient, he is speaking from a medical standpoint. He is not considering that EVERY time I am sidelined for three more days costs me $600 to $800 more dollars. At this point even if we got a miracle and saw good growth on Tuesday, I would still need at least 3 more days of drugs to get to maturity.

She basically leveled with me and said that if we don't see anything on Tuesday, than she would probably stop if she were me and I am inclined to agree. At some point, I have to just recognize that this cycle is not working out and hope that it works out better next month. I don't want to waste all the money I have left on a pointless cycle and not have enough to try again next month.

So the only question that leaves me with is if I give up on this cycle, I'd like to stil try on our own in case I ever O. I just don't know if I can use OPK's at all because the drugs I am on have a small amount of LH in them so if I stop them Tuesday when I will obviously know that I am no where close to O'ing, can I rely on OPK's at all this month or do we just have to DTD as much as possible throughout the next two weeks and wait on AF? Maybe I can do OPK's and we can do another follicle check when I get my + OPK? I really thought I remembered them saying though that sometimes there is no LH surge when you are on injectables so OPK's aren't reliable. I will ask when I go in on Tuesday. I forgot to ask today.

I should be devestated. But that's not the right word for how I'm feeling right now. I am tired and frustrated.

I am really just wondering if I need to stop all this all together. How many years have to go by before I get it? This is NOT happening for me! :(

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Oh Chelle... I am so sorry... Do you have enough meds to get you through until Tuesday?? I would say just wait and see what that brings and ask those questions about LH and OPK's and go from there. I can't even begin to imagine what your feeling and I won't pretend to. I just wish there was something I could do or say to help, but all I got is love, support and a shoulder when you need it... If this cycle ends up being a bust, maybe you just need to take a few months and give yourself a break.

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(((HUGS))) How frustrating. I can just feel your frustration and exhaustion in your words. And yet, I also know how hard it is to just give it all up. There's always the "what if" that maybe if you try "one more time" that things could happen. If you don't try, you could lose that opportunity. But yet, we're constantly disappointed month after month after month. Are you able to try again next month with the hybrid IUI (that could potentially end up in a complete injectibles cycle like this one)? Or are you going to just table things and go forward with your original, original plan of saving up for the IVF? Whatever you end up doing, you know you'll have us in your corner rooting for you!
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Michelle I just want to say sorry and offer hugs...

I think tired is the best word. I know that's how I feel, just plain tired.

I'm still hoping for some miracle follie growth...


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HUGS!!!!!!!! I'm sorry, I know it must be so frustrating for you. I'm not even sure what to say, wanted to tell you I was thinking about you.
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Oh Chelle. I am so so sorry. (((HUGS))) Chica
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Chelle,
I am so sorry. I am glad you did find someone who would level with you, though... I am at a loss for words. Just want to send cyber {{Hugs}}.

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Sherilyn, you and me both girl...
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Sun, 01-30-2011 - 11:10pm
Chelle, I'm so sorry hun... :( (((HUGS)))

 


 


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Ugh, I just don't get this cycle for you. Did they ever have a good explanation for why? Was it the extra 2cc saline?
We know how you get hyper-focused and emotionally invested in the process. You're supposed to be able to trust the process and you're being totally betrayed. I would say if you decide to stop the cycle w/ the RE, you and DH should still DTD every night for a couple weeks (ya, I said it. You probably wouldn't ever be the same after that LOL) just so you know you hit that egg.
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Yeah, I will def do that but every couple nights instead LOL I think that would kill DH.
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