AF ? Is that you?

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AF ? Is that you?
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Thu, 07-26-2012 - 2:08am

Hi ladies :smileyhappy: Well this topic is really an informative/educational one for you mamas patiently waiting for AF to show..... as we are not TTC right now (well he isn't anyways lol!)......I thought I would document all the good details as a case study. So here are my stats....

Nursing baby #3 who is now 15 months old.

She nurses to sleep at night, usually once or so throughout the night - sometimes more, but we bed share so who knows for sure ! - nurses a lot in the early a.m. hours and first thing when she wakes up, nurses to sleep at naptime and usually again when she wakes up....I am not restricting her nursing at all and have never done so - she is teething some serious molars so likes to pacify herself on me right now. She IS quite a decent night sleeper so I often do get a good long stretch of sleep in the middle of the night (as far as I know). 

After DS #1 was born - AF returned at 16 months PP with the help of vitex, and stretching out nursing sessions as best I could.  I got pregnant with #2 when he was 22 months old. 

After DS#2 was born - AF returned at around 4 months PP - no vitex or anything used - I was super surprised - at around 6 or so months I started using Vitex to help regulate cycles and was getting a pretty regular cycle soon after. As many of you know, this still did not help in getting my BFP -  I was O'ing, had a decent LP, hormones checked out okay etc. - timed BD, OPK's, fertility monitor, herbs/supplements - you name it - we tried it....finally turned to clomid (fail), IUI's (fail x 3), and IVF (Baby girl #3 was conceived!!!!).....

So here we are - 15 months PP - I have had many, many, many patches of fertile CM over the past year - I do not temp, chart, do OPK's, use my monitor, or take anything other then my prenatal vitamin and when I remember, calcium/magnesium, and b complex on occasion. 

I do remember having a lot of fertile Cm about a week and a bit ago.....last Sunday I had some serious cramping/weird sensations in my lower abdomen - I am chalking it up to food poisoning or a virus - was honestly driven to distraction - it felt so crampy uncomfortable - had to go and lay down and skip dinner. This lasted just over 24 - 48 hours......I think it was a virus but who knows?! 

Either yesterday or Monday I remember thinking I wonder if AF is coming - it just crossed my mind like some weird psychic thing - when I wiped (TMI ALERT!!!) a few hours later, there was streaky, brown CM that looked very much like the beginning of AF coming. Nothing again for the rest of the day......Hmmmmm.

Today - a bit of pink, streaky CM - nothing else today.

My lower back is a bit crampy. I feel a bit heavy/possibly crampy coming.  I think AF is trying to come and maybe I am willing her away lol. I do not think it is implantation spotting (even though there is tiny glimmer of hope - okay maybe not so tiny - but I am realistic - really I am :smileyhappy:......) 

What I am wondering is if it is like my very first ever PPAF which was mostly just a tiny day of anovulatory bleeding.

Stay tuned for tomorrow's update.....as we chronicle my PPAF - for scientific purposes only lol!

Jasmine

 

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Thu, 08-23-2012 - 2:57am
Did you tell DH ? What did he say? Mine was out of town so he missed the event although I do plan on filling him in next month. He does deserve to know what is happening and make informed decisions for himself although we are still working the pull and pray method lol :smileyhappy:
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Fri, 08-17-2012 - 4:08am
:smileysad: Sorry for your disappointment and for feeling kind crappy and tired Lindsey. It is so tough to juggle with our emotions and hormones sometimes. I hope you are feeling better. Once again, I totally know how you feel!!! AF arrived for me today kind of out of the blue although I think that in the back of my mind I had a feeling she might show again soon after last months spotty episodes. Today it is a bit more obvious although not super heavy.....I am scared to tell my DH too although we have been using the P&P method of birth control for awhile now - I maintain that based on our past fertility issues that should be good enough but he is adamant that we are done, so maybe if he knows he will schedule something more permanent. I know we are likely done and most days I feel okay about it - at least more so as the days go by and I envision a time when the intensity around here eases up a bit. I think it is very important for me to be honest with him but I guess I am in avoidance mode right now. I don't actually feel too awful about being done most days until I do something stupid like stalk the EC boards and see the same women's names popping up baby after baby after baby lol...drives me CRAZY with envy some nights!!!! Anyways, I hope you and DH come to a happy place on this one - it is tricky to feel something so strongly and know your other half is not there yet. I promised DH after our girlie was born that I would move on and let it go....working on getting there but yeah, it sucks somedays. I wish we were 10 years younger and a lot richer :smileyhappy:
Hugs, Jasmine
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Tue, 08-14-2012 - 5:05pm
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Mon, 08-06-2012 - 5:14am

Lindsay, you seem to be getting a positive OPK every 4 weeks or so.  I think your body is just gearing up to start cycling again.  It's been annovulatory cycles so far, but I'm sure you will ovulate again soon (if you haven't already!)  Good luck x

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Sun, 08-05-2012 - 12:59am
Keep me posted!!!!!
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Sun, 08-05-2012 - 12:59am
Well truth be known I would love to test but am so sad that it will be a negative that I would just rather live in a state of blissful ignorance :smileyhappy:
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Sat, 08-04-2012 - 11:00pm
Honestly I don't know what my body is doing????!!!! It is driving me a bit crazy all very conflicting signs, so just wait and see what the next week holds:smileyhappy: I was hoping you got AF or BFP since my situation sounds similar to what you describe:smileyhappy: Lindsay
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Sat, 08-04-2012 - 2:06am
Hi Lindsay! Well I only ended up with the one wipe of brownish spotting on one day and more pinkish on the next day and then nothing else.......I have not tested and I guess there is a tiny part of me that is hopeful that it means something - but my logical side says that I do not feel pregnant (super tired this week but that is just from 3 kids and hot weather I think!)...My CM today seems very abundant and I have a headache so am wondering if I am trying to O again. We are using no b/c other then pull and pray so although it could be possible to get pregnant, I am not super hopeful since I don't think I am that fertile anymore...... I am tempted to test but have none in the house so am just going to coast along and see what happens..... What is up with you?! Curious...... :smileyhappy:
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Fri, 08-03-2012 - 8:38pm
Any updates? Did you get AF or any more spotting? Did you ever take a test? Have something similar going on and wonder what is up. Just wondering if you figured out what your body was doing. Lindsay
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Tue, 07-31-2012 - 1:01pm
Lol, men worry if wearing pink makes them less of a man.... they're so strange!
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