And so it comes to an end...
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|Wed, 07-28-2010 - 5:05pm|
Breastfeeding. :( As of today, it has been 20 months and 2 weeks I have BFed Sophia. I joined this board when she was 2 or 3 months. I want this so much, as BFing has been so draining for me, especially as of late as she has gotten so big.
But on the other hand, my heart is breaking. This is going to be so incredibly hard with her. She was a boobie baby from day 1. I hope this doesn't go badly, as I am on anxiety meds, antidepressants and something to help me sleep (chronic insomnia) already. The look on her face when I refuse her the boob is heartbreaking. But I know a big part is acting. :)
I am just sad to lose this, the most special bond I have ever had with anyone, ever. I feel her pain like no one else.
My family has talked to me and I agree that this the best time. My in-laws are here and my husband and I, all in one house (ours) until September/October. They approached me, knowing I want to do this because it''s draining me so badly and they think it will make it easiest on me because I will have three in house helpers, two of them here all day with me. It doesn't get easier than that, I suppose. Doing it alone would be much worse.
So here I sit, not really knowing what to think. All I think about lately is how much I want another baby and how I'm on the verge of going to the RE because I can't get pregnant/stay pregnant.
It just feels like a big loss. But at the same time, I'm ready. So ambivalent, I suppose.
I really need some advice...or thoughts or whatever. Any BTDTs, how did weaning go for you? How long did it take?
Thanks everyone in advance....it may take time for me to get back as I have been overwhelmed lately. Family issues in my family. I'm so drained.
Anyone ever wean over a week or two?
Heather, mom to Sophia 11-14-08