Can I rant?

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Registered: 12-03-2007
Can I rant?
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Wed, 11-17-2010 - 12:00am

Sorry this is not going to be pretty and I can't really share any real details.

But tonight was one of the hardest nights ever. Not related to TTC... but still. Dh has been working on losing weight (we'll jsut leave it at that if I can wink and such you still wouldn't understand... so assume that in four months you'll understand... sorry for not making sence there) So he's been working on losing weight, and very suddenly that path has taken a huge turn. Well he hasnt' been completely honest (duh, when you're not dropping pounds it's kindof apparent).... and he is starting at an eating disorder rehab tomorrow. A life that we've been living for the past 9 months is over, well mostly, and while rehab will be a good thing/the best thing (don't worry it's outpatient) it's still hard to realise that all we've worked at (and been put through) in the past 9 mos is essentially over. Sure if he's successful in the remaining time it'll be good etc. But it's really sad. I feel let down and like I have to be the wife and the mom and the support... when really I feel let down by this whole process/DH not making it work. Now I know and understand that he really does have a food addiction, and that professional help (more professional than what he's had) is necesary, but I still feel like along with all the other downs we've had this year this is just one more to add to the pile. I'm ready to have my husband back, the guy who's

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In reply to: emedoodle
Wed, 11-17-2010 - 1:41am

Hugs :( I am sorry your DH has not been trying as hard as you had hoped - or as hard as you have been to turn things around. It must be hard as yes, food can be a pretty hard addiction to kick, and if he is not being honest with you, no wonder you are disappointed and frustrated. I truly hope that the rehab works for him and you - and that things go your way really soon.

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In reply to: emedoodle
Wed, 11-17-2010 - 8:38am

Oh, hon.


Dee -- Homeschooling mom of 6 -- Forty-four and praying for 1 more!


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Registered: 12-03-2007
In reply to: emedoodle
Wed, 11-17-2010 - 10:21am

Dee, Thanks for your imput! I agree, this is totally the same/similar to what you've gone through. It's all an addiction to food. DH is at the rehab center now getting things sorted out. We're very lucky and thankful to have a benefactor of sorts who is willing to pay for the services for him. He's tried so many other ways, this is what he needs now. It's pretty scary though. I can't wait till I can really be open about all this. You'll see, it's going to be quite a story though!

(ps - as if FF realised I needed some cheering today, I got crosshairs!)

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Registered: 06-21-2007
In reply to: emedoodle
Thu, 11-18-2010 - 10:33am
Hey Em,
I can't imagine the feelings that you are dealing with. ANy chance that you can get a bit of counseling too? Someone to talk to might be able to help you sort through it all. Best of luck to you and your family. Stay strong and I'll keep you close in my thoughts.

Amanda


Mom to Talia (3)


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