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|Wed, 11-17-2010 - 12:00am|
Sorry this is not going to be pretty and I can't really share any real details.
But tonight was one of the hardest nights ever. Not related to TTC... but still. Dh has been working on losing weight (we'll jsut leave it at that if I can wink and such you still wouldn't understand... so assume that in four months you'll understand... sorry for not making sence there) So he's been working on losing weight, and very suddenly that path has taken a huge turn. Well he hasnt' been completely honest (duh, when you're not dropping pounds it's kindof apparent).... and he is starting at an eating disorder rehab tomorrow. A life that we've been living for the past 9 months is over, well mostly, and while rehab will be a good thing/the best thing (don't worry it's outpatient) it's still hard to realise that all we've worked at (and been put through) in the past 9 mos is essentially over. Sure if he's successful in the remaining time it'll be good etc. But it's really sad. I feel let down and like I have to be the wife and the mom and the support... when really I feel let down by this whole process/DH not making it work. Now I know and understand that he really does have a food addiction, and that professional help (more professional than what he's had) is necesary, but I still feel like along with all the other downs we've had this year this is just one more to add to the pile. I'm ready to have my husband back, the guy who's