At my wit's end

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Registered: 08-09-2004
At my wit's end
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Mon, 12-20-2004 - 1:33pm

Well here I am at cd32 and still no af. I have been feeling like it should start any minute and it doesn’t all I have is creamy cm. I think I o’d the 5th so I would have been due yesterday. I took a pg test and it was a bfn. So I don’t know what’s going on. I just wish I were pg and knew it. I thought for sure af would be here yesterday!!!!!

Anyway I am loosing it. It took 2 years 3 months to get my son (one year old today!) and don’t want to go through that again. I know I am Oing so that’s not the problem. I just wish something worked. I gave my best friend advice on how to start af while nursing and she got af and pg in 2 ½ months! Not fair I have had af for 10 months and been ttc for 6 and nothing but a chem pg. I am so frustrated.
Any way thanks for listening to me rant. I love having babies but HATE ttc!

Shawnicy

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Registered: 11-28-2004
Mon, 12-20-2004 - 8:39pm
It's very hard to hear but everything happens for a reason. I know what it is to wait and wait for conception but it will happen. The important thing is what you do between now and conception. You can choose to spend your time living life to the fullest, enjoying everyday, cherishing those moments before the morning sickness, the cravings, etc. or you can think about getting pregnant at every waking moment (like I did for four years) and lose out on some of the best times of your life. I'd love to have baby #3 on the way but I refuse to let my anxiety about TTCing affect my ability to enjoy my 6 month old and my 7 year old. I did that for four years and I so wish I hadn't. Please know that you are in my prayers. Have a great holiday and new year.
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Registered: 08-31-2004
Mon, 12-20-2004 - 8:55pm

Hi Shawnicy,

I'm so sorry you're having a tough time. I know how it feels, we TTC for 3 yrs before we I got pg w/ ds. It's torture. I understand where you're at though, waiting for either AF or a BFP, either one, but just something! Good Luck, I'm hoping you get a late BFP ;0)

Jeska