Sunday.....

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Sunday.....
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Wed, 09-15-2010 - 9:35am

Hey, hon.....

I'm watching your chart.....hoping your temps go back up. It's still early, so don't give up. Are you testing at all?

I'm wondering.....I know you have been on the boards less this cycle....do you think it's helped you? I go back and forth from "I need the support" to "I need to stop thinking about this." Just wondering how your cycle went this time....

It seems like it doesn't get any easier. Hope you're doing o.k. Hugs,



Dee -- Homeschooling mom of 6 -- Forty-four and praying for 1 more!



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In reply to: dee6kids
Wed, 09-15-2010 - 9:05pm

Hey Dee,



Thanks, girl. I'm trying to just not think about things, which isn't easy, and no, it's not really working. To be honest, I just don't think it's going to happen for me, so coming here has been a bit difficult lately. I was all psyched to try acupuncture, but then found out my insurance doesn't cover it, and the flex-spending that we had to use by this week would have, but only with an MD prescription, and I just

 

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In reply to: dee6kids
Wed, 09-15-2010 - 11:08pm

Sunday,

I so feel for you. I wish I could make it better. I'm having trouble making it better for me, though.....it's just plain hard.

I'm sorry the acupuncture isn't working out.....have you and DH talked about meds for real? I know my DH was against it. We have had long conversations about it and he was at one time absolutely against a trigger. He really believes that if it's God's will we shouldn't have to do anything to make it happen. I believe that God gave us doctors and meds and if I had cancer I'd do chemo.....it's a very basic difference of opinion....but he will defer to me. Thank God. If he told me no.....I just know I'd resent it no matter how hard I tried not to.

It's something to think about...clomid is cheap. I know our insurance pays for nothing--so I'm limited, too.

I am feeling what you're feeling.....I have had real thoughts lately about it not happening at all. Then I think if my friend who just had a healthy baby at age 45. She keeps me going. I just keep thinking ONE of these times, it might happen. But then reality sets in again.....I know I'm tired of the emotional roller coaster, but I can't get off.

And yeah, my chart looks nice......but I also know clomid will keep temps up and I have a bunch of bfn's staring at me. Sigh....although I didn't test today, so all hope isn't lost. It's a big long shot though. Praying for late implantation, but expecting af in a few days.

By the way....how much is your lo nursing now? I don't know if I'd be too quick to blame nursing......my DD is barely nursing and has been down to 2 times a night for awhile now....it's not helping me out. She actually hasn't nursed since the day before yesterday....she fell asleep without last night and slept through....I was going to make a point of nursing her to sleep tonight...but she fell asleep while I was reading the bedtime story....looks like I might for the first time in 15 years not be nursing or pregnant.

Anyway....I wrote a book...but think about clomid or femara....really. If it did nothing else, it gave me a bit of extra hope and the feeling that I'm doing something. I told DH I might get bigger boobs, too....but that didn't happen. : p



Dee -- Homeschooling mom of 6 -- Forty-four and praying for 1 more!



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In reply to: dee6kids
Thu, 09-16-2010 - 7:56am

Dee,



We're in the same situation, DH and I. He thinks if God wants it to happen, then miracles happen every day. And I think we need to be more pro-active, and it's time to see what science has to offer. I think he's also scared of getting twins. I'm at the point where I'd rather triplets than none at all. It's time for another talk.



My temp went up today, but I'm still cramping badly enough that I don't think it means anything. I still expect AF in a day or so. I wouldn't mind being wrong, I just don't think I am.



My LO is still nursing quite a bit. I think she's an addict ;)

 

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In reply to: dee6kids
Thu, 09-16-2010 - 9:53am

Hey girl,



I feel your frustration.

Amanda


Mom to Talia (3)


expecting #2 on 1/11/11

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In reply to: dee6kids
Thu, 09-16-2010 - 10:07am

Hey Amanda,



How are you feeling??



You know, I've read all of that, too, about prolactin levels normalizing fairly early, and DD is 21 months.

 

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In reply to: dee6kids
Thu, 09-16-2010 - 3:57pm

Sunday...real quick.....I had my hormone levels done a couple of months ago......they were at non nursing mom level and she was nursing all night long then still.....but I hear you about the Vitex making a difference.

I am actually going to talk to our pastor Tuesday about the whole "if it's God's will then I just need to have faith" thing. Let you know what he says.

I hope your temp. stays up for you!!! The good thing for me this cycle is I won't be tempted to test even with a wacky temp. rise at 14 dpo like last month.....I know clomid can keep them high. So no matter how I feel, I'm done testing.



Dee -- Homeschooling mom of 6 -- Forty-four and praying for 1 more!



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