Well, beta only went from 16,000 on Wed to 17,000 on Fri.
Hi Erin --
I've been gone a week so am just catching your updates; my heart hurts with you in your uncertainty. But I've read everyone's notes to you too and there are encouraging stories as well. The most important theme is that it's too early in your pregnancy to presume the worst! We've got the power hum going through your next tests and beyond -- it's a force to be reckoned with. Stick, baby bean!
big hugs to you,T.Ann
I am very sorry that you are having to deal with this, and I hope you can find some peace between now and Wednesday. Do what you can to relax and take it easy.
I have been thinking of a response for an hour or so. I know the hCG results are not what you wanted/hoped, but there may still be some hope. Two results may not be determinative. If there was anything wrong with one result, the outcome cannot be accurately confirmed. Having the U/S will be the best way to know for sure exactly what is going on. I am sorry it is such a long time until Wednesday, but clearly your doc is waiting so that your U/S will have the best chance of showing something conclusive. I am still sending my P&PT for positive signs of a viable pregnancy.
Erin, if it is the case that this pregnancy is lost (and I sincerely hope and pray this is not the case) please do not see this as a sign that you aren't able or meant to have a baby. Getting pregnant in the first place is a sure sign that your body is capable of it. This is a really encouraging thing. I know it doesn't seem that way right now... but it is still true. Regrettably, often the first pregnancy is lost. It just seems that way with so many women I have known or heard of on-line and elsewhere.
You are a strong woman with a loving DH and a good support group. Consider yourself virtually hugged, and then hugged again by your CL.
Thank you for your warm and very thoughtful reply.
It sounds like you have a great outlook despite the circumstances. Still sending positive vibes your way:)
Thank you, Dawn.
There is no preparing for this type of news. No matter how we steal ourselves against it, it is overwhelming to hear that a pregnancy is in jeopardy or has been lost. It is just damned hard to take in.
Here is the good news - you have not waisted even one egg in the waiting time. Not one during this pregnancy, and not one after that needs to be missed. If you do suffer the loss of this pregnancy, I recommend the D&C - which while difficult, is quick and complete. Thereafter, there will likely be a delay in getting your cycle on track, but if you temp and pay attention to your body - you will know when you OVL. You can decide to go for it or wait and you feel appropriate at the time.
Doctors often ask their patients to wait a cycle or two so that date marking will be correct when you get preggo again, making the various test and measurements more accurate to work with. There are some doctors who make reference to the condition of the uterine lining after loss, but just as many who do not concern themselves with a delay at all.
You will know if you are ready to go forward with TTC.
Be strong and be good to yourself.
I am sorry that things might not be looking good right now.
I remembered you and your little bean, while I was at Mass this morning. You too, Libby. In fact, I always pray in general also for all the women on the message boards ttc. Anyway, I have DD7 an DS4. I had MC before each of them. I conceived the very next month with DD and 4 months later with DS. I have heard many docs say to wait a month, but I did not. I wouldn't recommend anyone do that. I think sometimes your body is hormonally warmed up. I hope that you find great news with the U/S Wednesday, and I will continue to pray for this. Pray, Hope, Don't Worry.
Thanks very much. I am sure I speak for Erin as well when I say, "All prayers are welcome!"