I have never really introduced myself...

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I have never really introduced myself...
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Wed, 04-30-2008 - 5:06pm

Hi Ladies,
Thank you for all your good advice last week when I was testing...and testing. I did go on my trip to Phoenix and it was wonderful! No one suspected a thing, I snuck away one day and ordered a virgin margarita and did order a glass of wine one night that I sorta "played with" all evening. Another gal ended up polishing it off.

Anyway, I have lurked here for several years and occasionally asked and/or answered a question. my name is Julie, I am 45 years old and live in Oregon, my husband and I have been married for 18 years! I have four fabulous children ages 15,13.11 and 7. My dh does not know I am pregnant yet! I am going to wait this out a bit as I can't let myself get too excited. I am hopeful, but guarded you might say. If you have suffered a loss before, you will know what this means. Even though we were not actively trying, I hoped and prayed we would have a surprise as we are not always very careful.

I got the feeling my OBGYN was a little unsure as well. He reminded me that this is really rare, and my chances of this all working out is rare as well. He wants me to sit back and wait it out awhile. I go in on the 13th for an ultrasound to check for a heartbeat etc. he said I could come in and do daily blood work to check hcg, but that it is really early and that really won't give me any answers. he left it up to me. It has now been a week and I think I do want to go in and check my levels....it's SO hard to just wait. I know my dh is going to ask any day about my period (or lack of) as he is always baffled at how fast 28 days rolls around. I don't want him to panic, and I know he will.

I had a pregnancy 4 years ago that ended at 16 weeks due to Trisomy 18. It was the single , most horrible thing I have ever had to go through. He does not want to see me go through anything like that again. My Dr. did say the chances of that repeating is very small. It's more of a random one time thing.

Ugh! Sorry so long. Just needed to vent. I am so thankful to have all of you here. I wish I could tell someone personally, but my best friend, the one I would tell, would go straight to her husband, and he is a good friend of my husband. So for now I have you!

Thanks, Julie

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Wed, 04-30-2008 - 10:21pm
Congratulations Julia!

Carol, mom to 7

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Thu, 05-01-2008 - 11:35am

Yeah Julie.

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Thu, 05-01-2008 - 11:50am

Julie:


You always have us.

Susan L.

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Thu, 05-01-2008 - 3:10pm
I know how you feel.
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Thu, 05-01-2008 - 6:46pm

I was thinking of you over the weekend, Julie! I'm so glad the trip went well, that you didn't get harassed by anyone and that you are feeling good. Looking forward to more details!

Best wishes,
T.Ann

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Registered: 12-17-2007
Mon, 05-05-2008 - 12:19pm

Julie:

Have you told DH yet? KUP!

Libby

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Mon, 05-05-2008 - 11:47pm

Julie,


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Sat, 05-10-2008 - 10:21pm

Hi Ladies-
Yes, I did tell my husband. Actually, he figured it out. He is pretty wigged out about it. I told him last Friday (a week ago) and he didn't say anything about it for a week! Then last night we went out, he loosened up and did voice his concerns a bit.
I have gotten myself pretty freaked out over reading internet statistics. I found out today my chances of getting pregnant with my own eggs was less than 1% and all the chromosome issues that go along with being pregnant at 45 are pretty grim. It looks like 45 is the magic age of doom. I am so worried about what is to come. I am 7 weeks today and go in Tuesday morning for an ultrasound. Stiil feel a little achy low in my abdomen, sore bbs and today really tired. I go a day at a time, that's all I can do at this point.

I am keeping my fingers crossed for the rest of you! I will let you know how my appt goes.

Julie

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Sat, 05-10-2008 - 11:25pm

Julie


I am attentively watching your posts.

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Sun, 05-11-2008 - 2:48pm

You are right Leigh, I have vowed to not look any further at this point. Right now, I feel good and am thrilled to be in this position. I WILL have a healthy, happy baby!!! (How is that for being positive??

Julie