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Mon, 01-23-2012 - 8:48pm

Hey girls, some may remember me, I was here for a year and a half trying to conceive again after a m/c. I come and check on you all off and on hoping to see BFP's and figured I would give an update today. For the newbies, I got pregnant accidentally and shockingly at 42 after only 2 months dtd. Unfortunately, a large fibroid in my uterus caused a m/c, baby couldn't attach. For 18 months we TTC again, using clomid (6months), IUI's (4 total) and then Femara (4 cycles so far), next month will be 2 yrs since my BFP and nothing has happened since. TTC over 40 is a hard, exhausting, emotionally draining, all consuming journey and after a while I decided it was taking too much out of my life so I quit seeing the RE. I stopped temping, using OPK's, charting and even stopped talking to DH about it, he doesn't even know when I O now, or when AF is due, or when I POAS! (When we got pg we didn't even know we could, I was 42 and he was 46 but it happened all on our own, so why use all that stuff now??) Life is MUCH more peaceful now and I feel I have taken back control of my life too. I was not ready to totally give up the dream though and figured as long as I have the Femara I am going to take it and see what happens, my RE gave me a 6 month prescription. I still have hope though, it CAN happen!

 
 
 Me and girls xmas 09
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Sun, 01-29-2012 - 6:23pm
Nothing wrong with that Michele!! =)
 
 
 Me and girls xmas 09
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Sun, 01-29-2012 - 6:21pm
Oh Sandy I will for sure come back and check on your updates!! How exciting!! I wish we could have tried IVF/DE... Good luck! =)
 
 
 Me and girls xmas 09
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Sun, 01-29-2012 - 5:40pm
Hi Sharon! Yes, you remember correctly! Wow!! It was 4 months ago and man was it rough!! I had cartilage removed from the back of my right ear and implanted into my right TMJ joint to replace the one that was basically sand, then the left side they were able to repair what was there. Talk about a HORRIBLE experience, the first 4 days were miserable from the pain and swelling, omg, BUT I can now say I am glad I did it, my pain issues were so bad before the surgery, it is at least 50% better and Dr. said it should get even better than that in time! Thanks for asking! =) Big hug to you, I hope and pray for you to find the peace in this journey as well.....
 
 
 Me and girls xmas 09
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Sun, 01-29-2012 - 5:34pm
Oh Kiki I am so sorry you lost your baby! That was like me and my DH, 2nd month of unprotected sex and BOOM, baby, only to lose it, so frustrating!! Good luck to you and I hope I come check back and find good news from you!!
 
 
 Me and girls xmas 09
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Sun, 01-29-2012 - 5:32pm
Thank you Vickie, I hope I can come back with good news one day.... and see good news from you all too! =)
 
 
 Me and girls xmas 09
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Sun, 01-29-2012 - 9:56am
Great to see you again!!! Thanks for the words of encouragement :) If I had insurance I would get tested but still don't have any. Partly don't wanna know... I like to live with my head in the sand though, it's how I roll ;) So glad you are doing well and hanging in there.
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Fri, 01-27-2012 - 2:13pm

Hi LaRae,

Great to hear from you!

- Sandy (44) DS (natural) born just before my 41st birthday. TTC#2. Only issue: egg/embryo quality due to age. Clomid & multiple IUIs w/follistim &menopur = BFN. IVF#1 (Nov 2011) = 12 eggs, 9 mature & fertilized. Transferred 3 embryos (1-3BB, 2-3
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Fri, 01-27-2012 - 12:44pm
How did your TMJ surgery go? Am I recalling correctly? Great to hear from you and see that you are content with your life. I wish I could be...- Sharon
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Tue, 01-24-2012 - 2:05pm

Hi LaRae!

Kiki (hit my magic age of 45 and no longer TTC),but mom to a beautiful teen DD & 2 angels in heaven & married to my best friend

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Tue, 01-24-2012 - 9:17am

LARAE! So good to hear from you. Thank you for updating us. I think of you often and wonder how things are for you. Please send a big congrats to the ladies

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