Coming to terms and a big decision....

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Registered: 03-01-2010
Coming to terms and a big decision....
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Thu, 08-18-2011 - 12:18am
Hey girls, big update from me.... I am seriously, seriously contemplating quitting the TTC game after this cycle. I want my body back (I have gained over 15 lbs). I want my hormones level again (I struggle with mood swings on these drugs). I want my obsession with counting the days to stop (no more living in 2 week increments). I want my life back (focusing instead on this amazing new husband I have). Life is so short and I think I need to start living the rest of mine. TTC for 18 months now, a m/c, surgery, fertility drugs, procedures, it has taken it's toll on me and I am tired, I know you all KWIM. I took a big step and I went in for a surgery consult a month ago for a serious TMJ problem (I was told 20 yrs ago I needed surgery on but didn't do it) it causes chronic neck and shoulder muscle pain, BAD headaches, I can't open my mouth more than an inch and a half, among other issues. The Dr sent me for an arthrogram of my jaw joint last week, they injected a dye in to my jaw and they took video pictures of the inner workings of it and we met with him yesterday to go over results. I am bone to bone on both sides, my discs are totally perforated and they need to be replaced, they will take cartilage from the back of my ear and then put it in my jaw, ouch!
 
 
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Registered: 03-01-2010
Tue, 08-23-2011 - 10:51am
Thank you Sandy.... =)
 
 
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Registered: 08-19-2010
Tue, 08-30-2011 - 4:50pm

(((hugs))) and I wish you the best!

44- 5 children already- TTC number 6!

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