A day late and a dollar short

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Registered: 06-17-2004
A day late and a dollar short
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Sun, 07-18-2004 - 5:04pm
Got AF late yesterday, over a day late and after having unexplained nausa.

Oh well.

DH not much happier than I am.

Doc says she'll see me if I don't conceive after 6 months. THis was month 5. I honestly don't know how far I want to take this if I can't do it naturally. I'm pretty sure that anything more than just maybe clomid or something will be too much - I don't mean to offend anyone but I've always thought that if it can't happen pretty much naturally, than it's not supposed to happen.

Which is why I'm feeling really puny today.

So yeah- one more month on our own, then test after test after test.....maybe some type of medication.....then if that doesn't work, no baby for me, ever.

Just feeling really sad today.

Sorry to be such a downer, I'm sure all you other ladies will have better luck than I.

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Registered: 11-30-2003
Sun, 07-18-2004 - 7:26pm
Sorry you are feeling low...hope by the time you read this you're feeling better. Sending you a big ((((HUG))))....and tons of baby dust.

Margie

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Registered: 05-24-2004
Sun, 07-18-2004 - 11:14pm
I know exactly how you feel I think. We have been trying since last Aug. I finely got pregnant in Feb. & m/c in April. Every month is the same. I count down the days until I can do a hpt,(or 2 or 3) hoping I don't get my period, & each month hpt is neg, & then I get my period. Except for last month & this month. Last month I spotted for 2 days, thought I was having implantation bleeding, but wasn't. This month I havn't had a period at all, & have just found out through blood work that my homones are all screwed up. I am hypothyroid & thats all screwed up. FSH numbers are way to high, progesterone is way to low, & so on. Doc said it's probly why I had m/c. It seems so hopeless. My insurance does not cover any kind of fertility docs or treatments, so that is out of the question. Like with you, I think if it is meant to be, it will. It's very hard to accept the fact that it probly won't happen for me. Mirracles do happen though. I do a lot of praying for myself & all you ladies that are also ttc. I truly feel for you. Your in my prayers.
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Registered: 06-17-2004
Mon, 07-19-2004 - 10:12am
The thing is with us - last year, when I decided to throw all caution to the wind and actually leave myself open to getting pregnant, we got pregnant right off the bat and lost it at 12 weeks (blighted ovum) - and then made the mistake of not trying again right away because we were in the middle of selling our house and moving - so now that I really really want it, it's not happening.

Oh well....I just have to trust in God.

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Registered: 05-24-2004
Tue, 07-20-2004 - 10:56pm
I know what you mean. There are always regrets. Half way through my 39th year, it's like a light bulb clicked on & I decided I wanted another baby. I wished we hadn't waited so long to try. Now I so desperatly want one. Since my m/c in April, I've become obsessed with it, & can't hardly think of anything else. It only took me 6 months to get pregnant after 10 years of birth control pills. Now I wonder if I will ever get the chance again. I keep thinking, if I had only been able to prevent my m/c, I would be 5 1/2 months pregnant right now. I made it 9 weeks. I could cry everytime I think about it, which is all the time. We just have to keep trusting in God. If God wants it to happen it will. I pray constantly. I pray for all of us. There is still hope, even when it doesn't feel like it. Don't give up, I'm not. I won't. Trust in God. There is a reason for everything. Love & prayers.
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Registered: 06-17-2004
Wed, 07-21-2004 - 10:43am
You hang in there - I think I'm already wrapping my head around it - if it happens it happens, I know my limits. While I'm not there yet, or even close really, I know I'll be alright.

Anyway - thanks for your kind words, I was just venting mostly.

Baby dust to all!