On to round three

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Fri, 09-18-2009 - 2:21pm

I have been laying low because this ride has been so tough on me lately - trying to write and be upbeat hasn't been my forte. I know we're all trying so hard - and I pray for all of us here and send out good thoughts to everyone.

I was hoping this would work out... but I tested Wednesday for IUI/injects #2 and got a negative. I started flowing this morning and I just hate that it is such a crappy reminder. I have felt like crap for four and a half months with no reward... if I had something to look forward to, I could make it no problem. The hormones are really reaking havoc with my body and mind.

I can hear the clock ticking - and I really want to have a baby with my husband. It's killing me inside. Poor guy says he hurts to see me so upset (I know he wants this too - he is so good with kids) and he has been a dream. I am thankful that we are getting closer through this - but I wish we got the result we wanted.

So I'll begin the new round of injects next week and have another IUI but this will be the last. I'm not sure we can go through the emotional turmoil too much longer.

Jenni
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In reply to: jennis9
Fri, 09-18-2009 - 5:09pm

Jenni,


I'm so, so sorry.

Jessica

Me - 44, DH-47     

 

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Fri, 09-18-2009 - 5:55pm
Well dang it Jenni, I'm so sorry it didn't work this go around either.
 


 


Susan V

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Fri, 09-18-2009 - 6:53pm

Hey Jenni,

We are definitely in this together. I just started AF after my second IUI too, and I bullied my RE to do injectibles this coming cycle, so we will be cycle buddies. I sometimes think these assisted cycles are harder, as it seems to get my expectations up. Hopefully this will be the last time for both of us!

Sandy

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Fri, 09-18-2009 - 6:54pm

Jenni, I wanted to send some extra hugs to you!!! I know how devastated I am when AF shows!!! I'm so sorry. I hope your new cycles IUI provides the bfp you are praying for. I will pray for you too!!!

Lynda



 

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Sun, 09-20-2009 - 1:30pm

Jenni, I am so sorry you are feeling so low and we all know that need to "sit out" for awhile.

 

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Sun, 09-20-2009 - 3:05pm

Jessica, Susan, Sandy, Lynda and Ruth,

I know we're all in the same boat - thanks for the replies. it means a lot to me. I go in for bloodwork tomorrow and hopefully we'll see better numbers across the board this round.

I asked the nurse about my 'stats' for the last three rounds... and I was under so much stress when this ball started rolling that the beginning numbers were really poor. This last cycle, I really laid low and kept my socializing (mainly stressful family events) to a minimum (zero) and focused on how I was feeling. And the numbers were better.

It's so hard not to focus on this daily since we are all charting and temping, but sometimes I think too much can really play with your mental game.

Thanks again to you for your heartfelt replies and well wishes. I hope we all see some positive results soon!

Jenni
Jenni
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Mon, 09-21-2009 - 1:57am
I am so sorry that it didn't work for you this past month, hopefully this one will be better. TTC is a hard journey, and puts SO much stress on a relationship, I am glad to hear that your DH has come right alongside you in all of this. Having gone through several different treatments over the years, injectibles is definitely the hardest way to go, worse only for those who are doing it for an IVF cycle. Not only do you have the stress of TTC in the first place, but also the constant thinking about it because of charting, plus working your schedule around to make sure the injectibles are taken at the right time, plus all that those hormones due to your mind and body and it is no wonder that you get stressed! When I had to do injectibles, I found that the stress was too much and so we ended up taking a month off in between cycles. Time was not so tight then as it is for us all now though, so it was easier to make the decision for some time off. Now the clock is ticking so loudly that I don't know that I could do that now. Anyway, I just wanted to tell you that I think TTCing is one of the hardest things a couple can go through. Hang in there and take it a day at a time.

Michelle


Loving Mom to three

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In reply to: jennis9
Mon, 09-21-2009 - 12:20pm

I'm so sorry Jenni. It feels just awful right now, I know. GL for the next cycle....


Be good to yourself.

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In reply to: jennis9
Wed, 09-23-2009 - 3:01pm
I'm glad you're eliminating stress.
 


 


Susan V

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Thu, 09-24-2009 - 11:52pm

Thanks Susan,

I'm on day two of my hormone cocktail - and begin tomorrow with injectibles. and hopefully we'll see some good results on Tuesday for the ultrasound. Looking for a few good follies around 20+

I would then have my next IUI next Friday. Then on to the very slow two week wait. Let's just hope that my RIGHT ovary gets a few goodies for me... I have little faith in Lefty over there.

Go rightie go.

Jenni
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