Stay home over the holidays?

HI, I'm new here, waiting for O. I have been trying since April. Not a long time, but still frustrating. My family doesn't know that I'm trying. Therefore they also don't know the struggles I have been going through every month. My mom thinks I have enough kids, I have 2, and I'm too old. I always wanted a big family, at least 3. So this is a tough time for me. Especially since there is a girl in my ECFE group who is preggers and due the same time I would have been, but I had a CP.