Wondering...Anyone ever conceive?
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|Wed, 01-12-2005 - 6:20pm|
Hi everyone. My name is Sue. I’ve lurked here for a while and I was wondering...
Has anybody on this board actually conceived and delivered? I've been researching and the more I read, the less likely it seems that my odds are very good. No one in my family (that I know of) has conceived after 35. I was the "old maid" that waited too long to start a family... I was too busy having fun and living life... I kind of lost track of the old biological clock. Now I'm 42 and the "TICK-TOCK" sound is deafening. I just worry that I waited too long.
We've been trying since I got married (1999) with no luck. I've had the FSH & Estradiol tests and my numbers are OK. Hubby has an “average” sperm count, whatever that means, so he's not the problem. Maybe I'm just too old. I’ve read about problems with the lining being unable to hold the egg, or starting a period before the egg has a chance to implant. There are just so many factors that come into play. I keep reading about these celebrities who get pregnant at 45 or see these women with a brood of 8 kids ranging in age from infant to 30 and I just can't figure it out. Why can’t I get pregnant?!?!?! That’s one of the reasons I started hanging out in this forum. It helps to know that I’m not alone.
I know that there's not a big chance for conception, even with all the drugs. Its a gamble., but I’m a gambler! I have to look at the odds, though, and my odds are long. (But hey, the longshots pay off the most, right?) I've lurked here for a little while and dipped my toe in the water a few times... I've just not been that ready to dive in yet. Maybe I just don't want to hear what I am already thinking, that I'm too old and that its not going to happen. The one thing that I like about this forum is that there are so many ready to give positive support, but you also see that you aren’t alone in what’s happening to you. While I can understand the need for support and good thoughts and wishes, I also want to get a straight answer. I’d rather be hit over the head once by a two-by-four than die the death of a thousand slices (an old Chinese torture, in case you’re wondering).
I want a baby, and would love to have my own, but if we can't, I know that there are kids out there waiting to be loved... I know there are other options, but frankly, I don’t have the money to pursue them. We will probably go abroad if we adopt. Our church has assisted a few families in adopting sweet little girls from China. The church also will find ways to help us with the costs. Its amazing how there are so many here in the US who would love to have these children and yet, over there, they are willing to just throw them away because they only want sons. ARRRGGGGHHH! That just gets my blood boiling...
Anyway, I've meandered off the path and all over God's green earth... back to my question: has anyone here conceived over 40? I'm just curious… are we all chasing an impossible dream? We only have so much to spend, and when I look at the cost of the drugs, I get a little nervous. Has anyone ever heard of Freedom Drug? I’ve heard that you can get the drugs cheaper through them.
Sorry about rambling. Its just that I seem to be able to write more concisely when I’m responding than when I am initiating. Please excuse my meanderings as this is my first “initiated” posting… OK, I’ll shut up now and will let you guys talk :o)
PS: I want to change my name to growinghopeful… give me a reason!