43 with MS......

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Registered: 08-08-2005
43 with MS......
Mon, 08-08-2005 - 4:45pm
Hi everyone.......been lurking here for awhile and think this is a great place for support and information. I am 43, been diagnosed with MS now for about 5 years. I am in complete remission (thank God) and feel great. I know I am blessed. I have 2 beautiful children from a previous marriage, but now I have been feeling this overwhelming urge to have one more with the man I am engaged to. I have mentioned it to him on a couple of occasions about having children, and he says "We'll think about it". He does not have children of his own, but loves my kids like they are his. Still, I can't help but think about having a child with this man I am so in love with. I know there are risks, and that scares me. If it wasn't for the MS, I don't think it would be an issue. Part of me is frightened, but another part of me wishes for a "surprise". The only birth control we use is that he pulls out. I know it's no guarantee, but so far nothing has happened. I feel that we really need to sit down and talk about this, and wish he would approach me, but he hasn't. Every month that passes I think "what if I'm pregnant" and part me is so happy, the other part scared. Anyone have thoughts on what I'm going through? Thank you.