Back again in this club I guess....:(

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Back again in this club I guess....:(
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Mon, 10-29-2012 - 8:24am

Let me reintroduce myself...I am Nina, now 40.  I had a positive pregnancy test on 9/17 for the first time in my life, married for 10 years.

I had a miscarriage this past week.  I am so miserable. 

I wanted this so badly...and now I fear I am obsessed with the idea of it never happening for me again. 

I was almost 9 weeks... It all happened so fast.  I had an ultrasound on a Monday, baby heartbeat at 105.  Exam/Pap on Thursday and on MOnday I was spotting. 

Wednesday at the hospital, no heartbeat and finally lost the ...everything on Saturday. 

Still out from work, I cannot face everything right now.....

Thanks for letting me vent...

 

 

 

 

 

Nina, mc at 8 weeks, October 29, 2012, mc at 4.5 weeks on January 12,  staying positive and third times's a charm???

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Sun, 11-04-2012 - 10:07pm

Nina, I'm so sorry to hear of your loss.  Your feelings are completely normal, though.  I looked forward to my first appt. as well, because I wanted to get the "all-clear" to start trying again.  I'll be thinking of you and sending you lots of hugs!

Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers

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Tue, 10-30-2012 - 11:35am

awwww Nina....hugs!!

I've had 2 losses and yes, your feelings are very normal!  After my 1st loss, I just wanted and 'needed' to jump right back in there to get pg. again, ASAP.  When, I lost the 2nd one, I wasn't so eager to try again (out of fear).

Big hugs, I know exactly how you are feeling.  Just take it one day at a time and remember to breathe.  I am sorry you have to go thru this.

Kiki (hit my magic age of 45 and no longer TTC),but mom to a beautiful teen DD & 2 angels in heaven & married to my best friend

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Mon, 10-29-2012 - 5:02pm

 Nina, what you are feeling is completely normal. As much as I hated seeing the doctors that reminded me of my loss, I honestly needed those appointments to know that all was well and I would be able to try again. Hope you get to keep the appointment and all goes as well as can be. Hang in there, take care of  yourself. More HUGS

Vickie

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Mon, 10-29-2012 - 4:27pm

Nina, my heart breaks for you!! Cry I am so, so, so sorry. I know how difficult this is, ((HUGS)) to you. I hope this first appt provides you with some much needed TLC.  

Me (42) - TTC naturally since 1997; DH (44); DD (10), DS ^i^ Stillborn at 24 weeks 4/2009, Angel babies ^i^ - 08/1997, 02/2010. **01/2012-Officially started adoption journey. Homestudy approved 11-1-12!!! Now on to the waiting game... YES!! More waiting! God teaching me to be patient...

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Mon, 10-29-2012 - 4:14pm

So- I have a follow up appt on Tuesday morning.  In the midst of Hurricane Sandy, I received a call to be sure to call tomorrow AM to see if the office is open.  Totally Understandable.

But- I am so tense that I won;t have this appt.  This entire waiting game since Wednesday, I Have almost "looked forward" to this appt.  Especially once nature took care of it all on Saturday.  I feel like I need this appt. I will be seeing the same doc I saw at the hospital.  

Am I obsessed?  Do I need assurance all is ok?  I know I am so preoccupied with making sure I can again.  

IS this NORMAL?  I feel like I have no answers to the entire ordeal. I know thats just the way it is.  I just feel so lonely and truly alone - outside of my husband.  

Nina, mc at 8 weeks, October 29, 2012, mc at 4.5 weeks on January 12,  staying positive and third times's a charm???

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Mon, 10-29-2012 - 9:04am

 Oh Nina, I am so sorry. I wish I had a magical cure for the emotional  pain that comes with a m/c but there isn't one. Take all the time you need to grieve, cry, or get mad. Take it one day at a time and do what you feel you need to do to get through.   There is no wrong way to deal with this.  Please know that we are here for you and I'm sending prayers that you find peace in this awful time. Sending (((HUGS))) to you and hubby.

Vickie

My Ovulation Chart <img