Coming out of hiding

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Registered: 05-28-2004
Coming out of hiding
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Sat, 11-18-2006 - 12:30pm

Hello Everyone,

I've been a lurker here on and off and figured I should introduce myself. I'm 41 (DH is 32) and we have been TTC since September of 2005. I have children from my previous marriage but he has none of his own. I've had 2 surgeries and countless tests and have had 2 tubal pregnancies and a m/c. The latest info that I've gotten is that one tube is completely blocked and the other was 90% blocked with a narrowing at the uterus. They went in and opened that one up so now I'm back on the TTC grind.

Basically, I'm frustrated and tired. I hate taking my temperature and I hate how obsessive I get every month after ovulation time. Our sex life has always been wonderful but now I find that when I'm supposed to be at my most fertile I can't enjoy it because every month I feel like I'm a failure when AF arrives.

I'm hoping to find some support here. DH tries but really can't understand. My friends try but lately it seems as if they are all getting pregnant!

Anyway, thanks for letting me vent and thank you for being here.

Jenn

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Registered: 04-08-2005
Tue, 11-21-2006 - 11:42am

I know it's sooooooo dificult when AF shows up. I have an 11 month old baby boy concieved after 2 years of trying and after my husband had a Vasectomy reversal. I was 42.5. It is true that some times it happens when you least expect it.There is always hope.

Good luck,

TLC

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Registered: 11-04-2006
Tue, 11-21-2006 - 3:40pm

Jenn, I do know how you feel, and I am glad you came out of lurking to vent with us.

Emily (Ada's maman since 3/14/04)

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Registered: 09-05-2006
Tue, 11-21-2006 - 9:02pm

Jenn,


I am sorry, I completely understand.


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Registered: 05-28-2004
Thu, 11-23-2006 - 8:54pm

Thank you for your words of encouragement. It makes me feel better to hear success stories.. especially after trying times.

Jenn

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Registered: 05-28-2004
Thu, 11-23-2006 - 8:57pm

Actually, Emily, that's exactly what we just did. Work and school prevent us from taking too long but we just spent 2 days in Chicago, shopping and walking and just spending time together. We didn't plan it this way but it happenned to be during what was supposed to be our most fertile time. We'll see what happens.

Jenn

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Registered: 05-28-2004
Thu, 11-23-2006 - 8:59pm

Thank you so much for replying. I sometimes feel so alone in all of this and it does help to know that I am not the only one, though I wouldn't wish this on anyone.

Jenn

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Registered: 09-05-2006
Sat, 11-25-2006 - 9:17am

Completely understand, believe me....


Time does make it more bearable, it's always with you but you tuck into a place and learn to deal with it.


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