Did not want to have to be here
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|Tue, 06-28-2005 - 7:18pm|
I so did not want to have be on this board, but please don't take offense. DH and I have been trying since last fall. We got pg on the first month, when I was still 39. Whew! I had just made it! I was pg until 7 weeks and 2 days before it ended in m/c. So that means that time got wasted and I had to wait one cycle (no D&C needed) before I could TTC again.
I have not been successful since.
I turned 40 a week ago, and have started panicking. Bdays for me are normally no sweat (I'm not vain) but this one was hard b/c of this TTC situation. I took an FSH test last month, and thankfully it was normal. But my charting (which I didn't do last fall since I got pg right off the bat) shows a 10-11 day LP so I ran to the doc and got progesterone. I used it for the first time last month, thinking it was gonna be just the fix I needed. Wrong.
Now I'm willing to stand in the front yard and eat worms if that's what it takes to get pg again. I am a professional woman who for so long was unable to TTC b/c my career was so family unfriendly. I didn't really intend for it to be this way but it's a very competitive and tough field to succeed in. Now I'm beating myself up over that but that's another posting.
I've been pg once fairly recently so am hopeful I can do so again. My mother and both grandmothers both had successful pgs in their late 30s so am hoping I have the same fertility longevity. If I can't get pg or have another m/c, we may have to consider adoption.
This month, I'm pulling out all the stops. Am on evening primrose oil, am drinking lots of V8 Splash (my pals on the TTC After Miscarriage board say it helps so I'll try it) and DH has been ordered into boxers, which he hates but I told him I'd trade roles and he shut up. He has not been tested but we got pg so fast last time I don't think he's the problem. I'm probably just a barren old woman. I chart religiously and can even feel O when it happens. We had BD'd like crazy. This time, though, I doing the BD every other day b/c I just read about a study that shows it creates more motile sperm.
Thanks for listening as I seek support. Hardly anyone knows we were even pg or are TTC - my own mom knows nothing as we don't want any coaching or nagging. If we do get pg and can tell her, she'll be shocked. We didn't tell anyone about the first pg just in case an m/c happened. It turned out to be a good plan.
In return for listening, you'll get plenty of support from me as well. Thanks so much. These boards have been a real lifesaver for me.