Feeling, mmmmm, old
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|Fri, 03-09-2007 - 7:20am|
Hi - I think I am need of some encouragement these days. I am 42, happily married and in a career I love. I am a mom of a nine year old child. I had a tubal ligation. Then I met HIM. Decided to reverse the tubal. Got pregegnant 3 months later. Miscarried at 12 weeks. Pregnant again in November - m/c at 6 weeks. Pregnant again this past February and you guessed it, m/c again. We have undergone all of the fertility testing at a clinic and are about to start an ovum donor program. Through this all, I have maintained an unwaivering belief that I want another child. But as time marches on (at the speed of sound), I am starting to think I am an absolute fool for wanting this at my age. I have been pregnant 3 times in one year and have to wonder if the m/c are simply the gods, godesses, or whomever telling me to smarten up. Am I fooling myself.
Honestly, I am experienceing a fair amount of depression over this right now. Could be all the hormonal changes, etc. All I know is I have become increasingly more lethargic, less wanting to be around people and sad and even angry.
My husband is very supportive and says and does all the right things. I think right now, he is overwhelmed by my emotional state (kind of out of character for me)
So, I thought I would reach out....