Fertility is a fickle @*#*!!

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss Barb.

I am so sorry for your loss, it hurts so much. You are definitely NOT whining. You are hurting, and that is hard. I see myself in a lot of your story, a difficult time getting pregnant, finally coming to terms with the number of children, and unexpected pregnancy and then loss. I knew soon after that I wanted to truly try again, not just unprotected like we had been, but it took DH a little while longer to decide to try again. I was also quite angry about a week after we lost the baby, but it passed quite quickly. Please take time to grieve and mourn your loss, but if you decide to try again the ladies here are wonderful support.

And being grateful for what you already have does not make the loss or the desire for more any less. I have four children, but the fact that my heart still cries for more makes it every bit as painful as before I had any children. The only real difference is that I have many wonderful distractions during my day, but the tears can still come at night. ((((Hugs))))