I'm back to TTC after a 12 year break...

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Registered: 01-15-2006
I'm back to TTC after a 12 year break...
Fri, 04-13-2007 - 8:20pm

During my almost 12 year TTC "break", I became an adoptive mom to two beautiful children, went through a divorce, remarried and had a surprise 1st time pregnancy, then subsequent miscarriage I'm happy, scared, confused, did I mention scared to be back in a RE's office again?!?

When my DH & I first met he asked me if I wanted to try to have a baby. I remember telling him, "No, I'm happily done." So I NEVER thought I'd be TTC again after a failed IVF/ICSI @ age 28 in 1995, but I also never thought I'd find myself naturally pregnant at 39...needless to say what a shock! I loved being pregnant and I savored every moment. I'd really like to be pregnant again, but I'm just so scared to get my hopes up too high, because after all that I have been through, the miscarriage by far was the most painful.

I'm having to break in a new RE who seems to be fairly aggressive...thank goodness. My OB keeps telling me that I'm just a "late bloomer", but I'm not that easily convinced.

Thanks for reading thus far!

Blessings to all,

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Fri, 04-13-2007 - 8:27pm


I'm so sorry about your miscarriage.

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Registered: 11-04-2006
Fri, 04-20-2007 - 4:08pm

Hi K,

I don't know how I didn't see your post, I've been here lots since 4/13, but somehow, I'm just seeing it now. Welcome!! Glad you're here! For you and for us.

Emily (Ada's maman since 3/14/04)

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Thu, 04-26-2007 - 6:50pm

Thank you for the welcome! I am 40 and a half. At times I think I must be crazy TTC after all all this time, but hey you only have one chance at this...you know?!? This is our last cycle all natural and then next month on to FSH injections. I vetoed Clomid, because it made me an crazy emotional mess 13 years ago and I would hate to put my DH and especially my children through it. My DH works for a big box company and they sent him 1500 miles away, but the kids and I are stuck here. There are times that he'll be away for 18 days at a time, then others where he'll be home for 3 weekends in a row. So, I'm holding down the home front on my own majority of the time.

Thanks again for the welcome.


PS My daughter's name is Hannah, so I especially love 1 Samuel 1:27.