Introducing myself, and also concerned about unusual flu...
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|Sat, 03-10-2012 - 10:36pm|
I'm new to this board but not to the ivillage message boards (I was active on the old 20-something and old 30-something boards and a few others that no longer exist). My name is Sapna, I'm 41 (but thankfully, could pass for 29), and TTC for the first time since early-October 2011. As an adult, my periods have been regular for the most part but I did have a hormonal imbalance in late-2010/early-2011 right before my 40th birthday. I had excessive bleeding (very frequent periods, like every 2 or 3 weeks) in October-December 2010, and didn't get a period in January, February, and April 2011, and had to go on Provera from March to June 2011. After that, thankfully, my periods returned to a mostly 26-day cycle, thankfully, and until very recently have varied between 26 and 28 days (upto 30 days in my 20s and early-30s). I was actually having anovulatory periods during my Provera phase.
However, things are just bizarre this month. My LMP was Feb. 3, we did the baby dance on what I thought was Day 11 and 12 (I usually ovulate between day 9 and 12) but I haven't gotten my NMP which was due on Feb. 29 or March 1, according to websites I consult i.e. babyhopes.com and webmd.com. The pregnancy test gave me a BFN when I used it on March 5 and then March 8. I'm having PMS-type symptoms, sore boobs, itchy skin, bloating, mood swings, that comes and go. Was getting excessive mucus-y discharge, then yellow-ish discharge, then brown jelly-like discharge when I wipe, plus I have an unusually dry cough and a cold now and feel miserable. I'm only 41 and my mom didn't go through any final change until 48, and I know I took after her in that area i.e. menarche at 10-11... I really want a baby! Didn't always feel this way but have been having baby fever since 2009 (but we weren't on the same page until the end of 2010 and we wanted to wait and start trying in the fall of 2011 with the hope of giving the future baby a spring birthday...) It's also hard seeing so many parents out there who seem non-chalant about their little kids, chatting away on their cell phones and living as if they were still child-free, and seeing baby and kid pictures from many other friends who are mostly younger than I am... I'm happy for them but anxious for me. I'm wondering if the flu I have right now could be a symptom (had the flu last November,too, after doing the BD during that cycle, but then got my period a few days later than anticipated). This time, BFN and no period so far... Can't medicate either on the off-chance of news I want to hear but caved and took Sudafed anyway because maybe I'm having an anovulatory cycle again although I did feel twinges and temperature rises on my Day 9 and Day 11...
Haven't used any OPK or ovulation strips or measured my BBT; was just going according to my CM and PMS symptoms. I will probably have to go to my ob-gyn and hope more Provera or Clomid could be the answer. My husband and I can't and won't adopt, and can't and won't spend $ on expensive treatments. I have a f****g low-paying job, the only job that didn't fire me or wasn't strictly temp, and that's a whole other post. Been afraid to leave it since it's close to home and has lasted but having to rethink it because I hate it. Plus, I'm worried sick about my reproductive health. I'm overweight but I cut out caffeine, alcohol, take multivitamins