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|Sat, 01-24-2009 - 1:54pm|
I have been lurking here for a few months. I just turned 37 in december and have 2 gorgeous children ages 5 10/12ths (:) and one who just turned 4 last week. My husband and i always talked about having 3. However, my husband battled a severe bout of depression for 1 1/2 years. I am happy to say he now has a job he loves and is taking the appropriate meds for him to be him again. He is ready to try for #3.
Anyway we just started trying this month and i am very paranoid about a few things...1)-my company has had many layoffs, and quite frankly...i would like a new career. Dont get me wrong, I am extremely thankful to have a job, but have been looking for few months. I have worked at this company pretty much since getting out of college at 21 .I just feel that there has never been a "really good" time for me to have kids. However, I dont know when i will find a new job so i dont feel like i can keep "waiting" just because the economy isnt really rocking right now.
#2-Perhaps this would sound strange to some but i get increasingly concerned that i will have a childhood like my own. My parents were very loving, but beginning around age 10 financial woes were severe. I helped pay for groceries with my pet sitting and baby sitting money as an 11, 12, 13, etc yr old. Please dont think i am whining as i know many people have had much greater struggles.I am not concerned with being a gazillionaire but i guess i am concerned about security. Whatever that is! I am extremely grateful 2 have 2 wonderful children and that my husband is happy again, but I am nervous. Plain and simple:) My mind just keeps going thru what ifs? This is all compounded by the fact that i am generally not a worrier-I am actually extremely easy going.
Can someone just make me feel a smidge better by saying they dont always feel financially secure and have doubts too? Please???
I wish you all the best in becoming mommies soon!